misa_blake

So things are not happening as I want them to but that is life. Instead of visiting NY i ended up in Fl. no clue how that happened, but it did. My aunt is a unique person. She took me to her church on Sunday. Pentecostal's droned up so much energy the pagan in me called it up and begged the goddess to help me help myself. I have to dig deep and get my motivation up. But It will happen. I need to get on my feet.. Maybe ill finally make it to the beach. Daytona beach here I come in all my NY fat glory lol. I get more looks here then I did in NC. I am not that strange. One thing is for sure there are A LOT more dealerships here.

As per my aunt. bright side no more GODDESS AWFUL sweat my balls off Flea Market. I can actually can get On to the bed I sleep on with out climbing. The food is far more diverse, I just need to buckle down and apply apply apply. Things HAVE to get better. I feel like my soul is torn in 2 and that I have no idea why. Its a very strange feeling, a piece of me I have always had is so far away from me. I don't know why its been like this. or how it happened.

I am still behind on my car but at some point i will finally catch up. And I will loose all my NY fat. Ill get back into the shape i want.

ok no more procrastinating off to apply to more jobs