I am so fucking depressed right now.
If it wasn't for my medication, I probably would have done some serious physical damage.
However, its just been serious mental damage.
I wake up every morning, and lay in bed for a moment, pondering my life, wondering if its even worth it to get out of bed.
I need a routine, structure.
My life is so mundane....
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If it wasn't for my medication, I probably would have done some serious physical damage.
However, its just been serious mental damage.
I wake up every morning, and lay in bed for a moment, pondering my life, wondering if its even worth it to get out of bed.
I need a routine, structure.
My life is so mundane....
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giggles:
I am part of that friendless group too
robotclash:
I've been in ruts like this before, too. I solved it by going on random adventures, exploring places. Maybe you could try going out and exploring one day!
I'm considering a lifestyle change.
This lifestyle change scares the hell out of me, but at least that's a feeling.
I've been living without emotions, numb, for quite sometime now.
I need something different. I need something dangerous. I need to learn trust.
I need a dom. I'm definitely considering a D/s relationship...all thanks to my ex girlfriend.
Thoughts? I've done my research, and joined...
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This lifestyle change scares the hell out of me, but at least that's a feeling.
I've been living without emotions, numb, for quite sometime now.
I need something different. I need something dangerous. I need to learn trust.
I need a dom. I'm definitely considering a D/s relationship...all thanks to my ex girlfriend.
Thoughts? I've done my research, and joined...
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the_libertine:
Being a Dom, myself... I say try it out but play safe. 
it can be a very rewarding relationship.
The most important advice that I can share is be vocal with your wants, your "non negotiable" points and where you want to be pushed past your present limits. Conversation--before and after--is something important and not to be dismissed. Ever.
it can be a very rewarding relationship.The most important advice that I can share is be vocal with your wants, your "non negotiable" points and where you want to be pushed past your present limits. Conversation--before and after--is something important and not to be dismissed. Ever.
violentpatriot:
Find the right D and you'll be good to go. Fetlife is pretty cool.
Just pick a good one please.
Just pick a good one please.
I have a girl throwing herself at me...actually a couple. Its nice...
I want love...I'm allowing love into my life this year...if I can ever tear myself away from my new xbox.
I want him...the boy...ahem, man...who lives in NY...yes, you know who you are.
I want love...I'm allowing love into my life this year...if I can ever tear myself away from my new xbox.
I want him...the boy...ahem, man...who lives in NY...yes, you know who you are.
the_libertine:
I'm happy to hear that. I can see why they would. You're quite lovely.
Still, there's no need to tear yourself away from your Xbox. Bring them over to your Box and have them love you there too!
I'm happy to hear that. I can see why they would. You're quite lovely. Still, there's no need to tear yourself away from your Xbox. Bring them over to your Box and have them love you there too!
giggles:
woo hoo
Christmas is always a depressing time of year. It might have something to do with the weather, or it might have something to do with a Christmas I had many years ago. I was about fourteen/fifteen...my mom was drunk again. Passed out all day, while we opened our presents alone. No dinner, no friends or family. And she screamed at us when she woke up....
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giggles:
i am so sorry christmas isn't happy for you
mydogfarted:
It is amazing how badly parents can fuck their kids up with so little effort.
Merry Christmas/Happy Yule!
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mydogfarted:
Happy Holiday of choice.
Its almost Christmas. We're cleaning the house, wrapping presents, doing laundry and dishes, making the house presentable so we can ruin it in wrapping paper when we tear open the presents on Christmas morning. I haven't been in the spirit in years, and I don't know why I am now. I've been through so much grief, I'm not sure why I'm so excited for a...
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So, my very short stay with my "friends", as I would like to call them, was extremely awkward, and did not go as I had hoped. For those of you who know what I'm talking about, and who read my last blog, will know how all was supposed to go. Lets just say I will not be a live in lover of theirs. This is...
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mydogfarted:
Glad to hear things are ending on a positive note.
giggles:
glad things tuned around
I'm sitting in the living room of my friend's apartment, listening to him argue with his girlfriend. This isn't the way I planned this. This isn't the way I wanted it to be. I thought things would be different this time.
So, here's how I got myself into this mess: I know this guy from high school...lost my virginity to him. One night he asks...
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So, here's how I got myself into this mess: I know this guy from high school...lost my virginity to him. One night he asks...
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mydogfarted:
Grrr. You were right, this really is awkward and ultimately ugly.
giggles:
akward
In honor of my friend Sheila, who just passed away (oh, thank you for all your lovely comments, I appreciate it), I made a Project for Awesome video, supporting To Write Love On Her Arms. In case you don't know what the Project for Awesome is, every year, hundreds of thousands of nerdfighters make videos supporting their favorite charities. And in case you don't know...
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giggles:
what a great thing for you to do
macq:
I will do that///and thank you for the Christmas card...
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robotclash:
I'm sorry for your loss.
talamia:
I'm so so sorry 
I can't even imagine how you must be feeling...
I can't even imagine how you must be feeling...