still searching for my soul. it seems to have disapeared on me. maybe i lost in in the confusion. maybe she took it away. i don't know. but i seem to be soul-less now. and alone. and cold. with a new metal rod in my lip.
alright... now for the 1 or 2 of you out there who read this, here's my sunday wrap-up...
i wake up on sunday morning around 4 pm. i look around a bit and try to remember what happened and how i got home. from what emo tells me, i was given a ride by she-jaime. but here's the weird part. i kinda remembeed her telling...
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i wake up on sunday morning around 4 pm. i look around a bit and try to remember what happened and how i got home. from what emo tells me, i was given a ride by she-jaime. but here's the weird part. i kinda remembeed her telling...
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faeryrae:
thanks for your kind words. it was so sweet of you. i dotn hit the bottle i would die since it would mix with my meds and i could die. depression is a bitch and i am getting to the point where i cant take it. i know i am not alone but i feel that way. we should talk some time. i need to do some soul searchign myself. *hugs*
bleeder:
See ya when I get back bro! Ill take loads of pics!
well, for those that care, here's my weekend wrap up.
i woke up and saturday to find out that my phone was disconnected. mind you, it's not because i didn't pay, but because my phone company is full of ignorant pricks who couldn't find their own heads with both hands (here's a hint... it's up your asses!). so i call them on my cell phone....
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i woke up and saturday to find out that my phone was disconnected. mind you, it's not because i didn't pay, but because my phone company is full of ignorant pricks who couldn't find their own heads with both hands (here's a hint... it's up your asses!). so i call them on my cell phone....
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mexicant:
huh. imagin that. 4 pints of guinness later and i'm back to hating life and everything it holds dear.
bleeder:
Sounds like you had a killer night! I miss the states for shit like that. I would love to party with you if I was out there. You used to be in a band right? What do you play? I used to be in a punk band named 'Flipswitch' I was bassist and lead singer. I miss playing in a band.
After you drink so much and you get hazy.....doesnt it suck when you wake up the next day and realize some of the shit you ended up doing?! haha!
After you drink so much and you get hazy.....doesnt it suck when you wake up the next day and realize some of the shit you ended up doing?! haha!
fuck. that sums up everything going in my life right now. fuck!!!
so i get home yesterday from the studio, and what's waiting for me? 6 messages from my ex. she wants to see me, she doesn't know why i won't talk to her, why did we really break up, etc. i really don't need that shit right now. so i erase the messages and...
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so i get home yesterday from the studio, and what's waiting for me? 6 messages from my ex. she wants to see me, she doesn't know why i won't talk to her, why did we really break up, etc. i really don't need that shit right now. so i erase the messages and...
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bleeder:
Yea...no shit huh? He seems to be very happy.
So, how did your weekend end up?
So, how did your weekend end up?
timothyscalliwag:
Oh for a pint of Caffrey's,..... hard to find a decent one around here,....its all LAGER,..LAGER ,..LAGER,..LAGER oh you know the words,.....
You must have one for me on your 4 day weekend coming up,....no I insist,.....just the one mind,....wouldnt want to encourage you too much !
Relationship problems too huh ? All i can say is it gets better and heals with time,.....just going through it myself,....lost everything i worked for these past years, and am i bitter ? ,..... I was,....but not now,.....she and her new man can have the lot if it makes her happy,....but more so,... as long as my son is happy. He's what keeps me going, and giving me the strength to start again.
Be true to yourself and true to your word Dannyboy, and you'll do fine sir,.......
Cheers to you dude
the "Scalliwag"
You must have one for me on your 4 day weekend coming up,....no I insist,.....just the one mind,....wouldnt want to encourage you too much !
Relationship problems too huh ? All i can say is it gets better and heals with time,.....just going through it myself,....lost everything i worked for these past years, and am i bitter ? ,..... I was,....but not now,.....she and her new man can have the lot if it makes her happy,....but more so,... as long as my son is happy. He's what keeps me going, and giving me the strength to start again.
Be true to yourself and true to your word Dannyboy, and you'll do fine sir,.......
Cheers to you dude
the "Scalliwag"
ok. so, i tried and live life happily. i really did. and what happens my first day out??? i get slapped with a harrassment suit at work. funny thing is, I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!!! i almost wish i had so i could warrant the punishment, but i didn't. here's what happened:
there's a girl at work. her and i used to be good friends. we...
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there's a girl at work. her and i used to be good friends. we...
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ok... um... yeah... sorry about that! 
somehow whiney-danny got out of his cage! bad danny! *slaps hand* bad!
went to my first ball game yesterday. weird that i had never gone before since i live 2 miles away from the stadium. but holy crap was it fun!!! not the game so much as the tailgate party! there i was, sitting on the hood of my...
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somehow whiney-danny got out of his cage! bad danny! *slaps hand* bad!
went to my first ball game yesterday. weird that i had never gone before since i live 2 miles away from the stadium. but holy crap was it fun!!! not the game so much as the tailgate party! there i was, sitting on the hood of my...
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gods it's hot. makes someone think about who they are and what they really want....
i'm a liar. a stupid fucking bold-faced lair! i hate myself for it, and i apologize to all of you for it (well, anyone who read my last post). i don't want it to stop. i don't want to lie down and not wake up. i just want to feel...
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i'm a liar. a stupid fucking bold-faced lair! i hate myself for it, and i apologize to all of you for it (well, anyone who read my last post). i don't want it to stop. i don't want to lie down and not wake up. i just want to feel...
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pureblu12225:
I hear where your coming from all you can do from this point is move forward ...lifes to short to live in unhappy not to mention you could be using that energy on something else luck to you
bleeder:
Thats rough man. I feel ya. Its so hard for me to find woman that are my type out here in Germany. Love can be cruel. Especially when you see people with someone who loves them that dont deserve it.
well, since no one is paying attention i guess i'll just start ranting about anything i feel like.
i hate my job:
i never really liked working, but i found a job that i had assumed would be good for me. i became a social worker for the county of SD. i thought to myself, "self.... now you can help people. now you can make...
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i hate my job:
i never really liked working, but i found a job that i had assumed would be good for me. i became a social worker for the county of SD. i thought to myself, "self.... now you can help people. now you can make...
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bleeder:
Damn. I feel ya brah. Its hard for me to find friends out here with the same things in common as well. You seem like a cool guy though. I added you to my list. Feel free to do the same.
tigress:
Well said and I can relate to that. I was with someone for 3 years and realized that he wasn't the person for me. I blamed it on being young and stupid, but deep inside I know I was blinded by love or at least the idea of love. and now I'm searching far and wide with my eyes,and mind wide open but I can't seem to open my heart to anyone anymore.... I can't find anyone who really suits me. I keep attracting the same types of people. I love to have fun and am outgoing but there's so much more behind these eyes.
ok...I think I've said enough for now.
ok...I think I've said enough for now.
is it just me or does anyone else think that mountain dew is the nectar of the gods?? i mean i love beer (and captain morgan, and dewars, and cuervo, etc), but the dew just holds a special place in my heart. i've been drinking so much lately, that i think it's replaced my blood! but i digress.....
i'm really writing in this journal to...
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i'm really writing in this journal to...
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New piercing or just new jewelry?
How was your weekend?