after dozing for a few hours, i get the urge to put my day on the internet
"It's five-o-fucking AM(!) I've actually the willpower to make myself get up, but christ god today MUST the last of this hellhole shit college has spiraled into (degraded itself to) why are these teachers such fucking bitches? why is education conducted with such meaningless paramiters(sp?) that rigidly judge...
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"It's five-o-fucking AM(!) I've actually the willpower to make myself get up, but christ god today MUST the last of this hellhole shit college has spiraled into (degraded itself to) why are these teachers such fucking bitches? why is education conducted with such meaningless paramiters(sp?) that rigidly judge...
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i want a puppy. and i miss my cat. and i want more sex, and love. and i want money for tagging paints. gugh. and even value villiage won't hire me. thats quite fuckin low, son. 
barbquebutt:
you just keep randomly popping up don't you?
hope falls, often- and i think intrest fades always. most people are the same. thinking is boring now, but what else do i have? is "pure being" another faith term? is christ in my blood again? social projections embarress me the way masturbation should. still, i like quoting admirable people, and looking at good-looking ones. so enter the place of commerce in a mask. enter...
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samyouwell:
easy girl...... have a drink. 
kamikaze_kid:
I don't think "pure being" is just a faith term. I think it can also relate to ones self and an asperation to be "cleansed" of impurity. Think detox. Also gotta say washing your hands is never a stupid thing.... its just good hygiene...
Blonde! 
barbquebutt:
not too shabby.
hope:
hey pretty! I like your hair blonde, (but I also like it dark) thanks for the friend request
it's finally time... time for a job. broke. i got real twisted up about life and my new drug-addled way of living it about three weeks ago, and vowed solid to cool down and start writing/playing guitar in the evenings instead of getting stoned. So then, i set out with the confident mindset that i was taking less drugs, and due to that confidence proceeded...
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kamikaze_kid:
We are so going to have to get together... I have the natural mindset similar to that.... But then again I figure why worry about the bad things in life.... they all go away eventually anyway... Plus maybe we can have fun with the anthropology shit, I used to study some of that for fun and would love to sit down and play with it again.
paullieboy:
im in seattle for the day lookng for someone cool to chill with
hit me up if you get this today....
hit me up if you get this today....
didn't realize a person(myself) could crave weed and red wine with such a devoted passion. went to london with my sister and father for a week, and was confined to a kosher regime of sightseeing and shopping- no freedom for clubs or a sample of sweet U.K. dope, which was offered to me by a few boys 4AM, and which i had to turn down...
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thehighestpower:
any new years resolutions?
barbquebutt:
duhhhh. its totally a guilty pleasure show.
wasn't supposed to write about that. fuck. i hate secrets.
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barbquebutt:
i wont say that i'm sorry to hear about your parents, cause it sounds like you think it should have happened a long time ago...
so i'll just say that i'm sorry that you're going through such a tough spot and are being subjected to so much mental anguish.
i hope things brighten up for you soon.
so i'll just say that i'm sorry that you're going through such a tough spot and are being subjected to so much mental anguish.
i hope things brighten up for you soon.
kamikaze_kid:
you should come play with some of us from sg seattle. could be fun ya?
woke up early (yes 11:00 is early) to study before class. fuckit. rather make a list here, inspired by manko and her snort-sweet friends, of things about me. but i'm changing this title to "7 firsts for melanie"
1. my first favorite movie was All Dogs go to Heaven, it has an atmosphere of dark pervesity, slum and slut, hallucinagenic fantasy, and childish kitsch, that...
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1. my first favorite movie was All Dogs go to Heaven, it has an atmosphere of dark pervesity, slum and slut, hallucinagenic fantasy, and childish kitsch, that...
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fallfromgrace:
Those are some good firsts.
So, if there's no free will, then are we unaccountable for our actions?
So, if there's no free will, then are we unaccountable for our actions?
kathleen:
you seem really interesting. i can relate to some of the stuff on your list. i didn't know that you played guitar. i do too. i think it's awesome to meet other chicks that do. thank you so much for wishing me a happy birthday. i really appreciate it.
def. time for a new entry, thought about pasting in a myspace one, but decided that was just to lame-ass-lazy-lame even for me.
it's also time to cut back on the cigarettes since they seem to dumb me down so much. it shouldn't be hard, and i need the long chainsmoke hours for important things like guitar practice and my novel. (that novel is just...
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it's also time to cut back on the cigarettes since they seem to dumb me down so much. it shouldn't be hard, and i need the long chainsmoke hours for important things like guitar practice and my novel. (that novel is just...
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kathleen:
that was extremely descriptive for a jounal entry. i have no doubt that your novel will be great. and i second disliking the site changes but shit happens.
So even though by bank account is crying and drinking it's own urine in desperation, i've decided to buy Danzig tix. (too bad Himsa is playing with. When can i escape this Pettibone apeshit?) but i can't figure out how to get tickets. I think the blackest tour site was saying that they go on sale 2pm the day of - tho it didn't say...
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barbquebutt:
buy the ticket at QFC. its through tickestwest.
i better see you there.
i better see you there.
kamikaze_kid:
well you said to so Hello, hows it going? Cheese is great, whats your favorite? Mine is havarti, mmmm so creamy
back from "vacation" and too sick from the mildew in my granparents house and smog of atlanta to give my tormented cat her tuna. my grandparents brains are lined in a stiff and crusty fuzz. i saw one of the alien movies and liked it way to much. also, the faculty is a good movie; but that nip/tuck show is really fucking wrong.
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fallfromgrace:
What's your fav book?
kamikaze_kid:
hello there, hows it goin? just gotta say love your eyes in your pic and cute kitty
if magazines are going to devote a few pages to social tragedy, then fine. but at least have enough scope and perspective to write about the things that really matter in the world. But the stories that People or Good Houskeeping choose to run are like, "my child has autism", or "sue's struggle with diabetes." and that's fucking INSANE when every two steps in india,...
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blythe:
YES!!! He was such a sexy little roller skate!!!! x x x xx
rosanne:
God Bless America! I have always had the dislike of the fuck trophies syndrome. I abhore the sight of a mother with a belly looming over her toes and three children stumbing, screaming, and pissing themselves behind her. I understand the desire to create a life "when two are united," a child is a tangable expression of lust, love, or rape in some cases. Why cereate more than one? There should be a limit on the number of things one household could pop out. ONE! After that...adopt the little snot nosed shit heads. This way, a couple could have their rosy cheeked way while assisting with one of our major world problems, over population, rather than adding to its jumbled chorus. The problem with a limit though...the government would have more control over human phisiology, adn that is terrifying 
Tales like this make me dread my plans of going back to school in the fall... *sigh* stupid teachers for the loss