maurauder

Hey Knockout... thanks for the e-props on the make up thread... I didn't even notice if it was for girls or you know, THE girls. I feel stupid now! I guess I just got so excited at how beautiful people are when they aren't building atmosphere with makeup and hair and lighting and stuff (not that I don't appreciate that, cuz I do). I think you are so drop dead gorgeous, and the fact that you use colour in ways other than makeup is like the best icing on the cutest cake.

PS- I was a very, very angry teenager... I can totally relate. *hug*

that sounds soooo cute. i think i will look like a homely little troll next to you but i am all for that idea. we are a dynamic duo indeed. also, big things went down today. call me.

i failed my class. i lost my acceptance to ucsb. i lost the scholarship. i lost my comfortable place of denial mostly. i am seriously depressed and i think that i have been trying not to feel anything and i now i feel too much. girls like me don't have two boys that say i love you or two boys who cry when i threaten to leave. i dont know what the fuck to do with this but i know that people who have two usually end up with none. i dont want eric to leave but i cant expect him to stay. i dont want to go back to the boy but i cant pretend that i dont stand in the shower and cry everyday. i cry for the wedding that i dreamed about, i cry for four years of memories that are fading. i cry because i saw forever in his eyes. i cry because i believe when he says im sorry and i believe when he says that he understands my value and would spend his entire life working to afford me. i want to run back to the place where i was a 4.0 student and my parents called everyday. here i am happy and i have a huge penis and i can get naked on the internet and be me and be free but my parents are ashamed and im a failure. my friends dont understand, i dont know what i want and i know i am going to break a heart or two before its said and done. this fucking sucks. lets get naked. fuck the camera. i mean, um....yeah, dynamic duos...lets do it.

how about ... cardio/pulmonary arrest. possible secondary to a general but terminal shut down of other vital functions or trauma, illness, H/A, B/A, ect

what was the name of that smasking pumpkins album which came out in 1998, the one after Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness?



-pb

Having been in the same relationship 20 years now, all I can say is that there are cycles of distance and closeness. Its natural- like tidal ebbs and flows or maybe more like seasons. Or maybe equalibrium and disequalibrium. The main difficulty is the unpredictability of the cycles. You do have to talk though. Being the quiet one, I've finally learned that. Best wishes to you.

your comix project is amazing! i love it! is that still in progress? I want to see more!

peace
Micah

Aww. thanks your are too sweet! I had a friend who went to Belize for 3 months. He camped in some rainforest and got dysentary... he has never been the same since! LOL

i can't remember what i did because i have no brain because my head exploded when i saw the newish pics in your vanity section

you've killed me

i'm writing this from the afterlife

its not so bad here

i get to hang out with johnny cash and charlie chaplin every now and then between haunting the new ppl in my apartment and having old snatch burn my feets with a curling iron

the cure's 'pictures of you' is just slopping along in my player, how appropriate

and that wasn't me in your dream, it was my soul self because my head exploded like i already told you

now stop reading this and send my some luv you most desirable of all my impossible fantasies




-pb

THE PHOTOS IN THE SILVER OUTFIT AND THE FLAMED HAIR ARE STUNNING .

Hooray for debauchery. I'd love to get the ones from the weekend off my camera on and into my photo folder on here, but my USB cord went on strike. Looks like fun, though.

your demeanor is spectacular. i have nothing more.
cherish this.

just dropped in to have a look at you again (and again).

i will ask, and say pretty please, that you refrain from showing up in my dreams. its torture.



-pb

oh...so dreamy

Hi I like you...you seem very nice....

how did your visit with zeph go???





-pb

You doing anything for the 4th?

What are you doing for the 4th? going to climb and houses?