So I have done absolutely horribly so far trying to keep this blog alive, I haven't posted since October 3rd, How very pitiful. I just got done refilling out my whole profile because some how it got deleted from last time and I just now realized it (aren't I just a genius).
Things have been super crazy lately, I feel like there isn't enough time in a day anymore, and I've been spending a lot of time hiding under covers lately, I think it's just the weather, cold is nice, and wet is nice, but when you combine them together, I want to stay at home and drink hot tea and watch movies, venturing outside in this weather just seems ridiculous, but alas, I must go to work whether I like it or not, because unfortunately, money is kind of something that's not easy to live without...plus, I really want to go sexy lingerie shopping lately, and I can't do that when I'm poor...so bring on the cold, wet weather...as long as there's a paycheck coming my way.
I realized the other day that I used to write songs and poetry so much more often but I feel like I just can't find the time for it anymore, I really should get back into it, I do love writing, it's just one of those things I find so very enjoyable.
I got really pissed off the other night because I've been trying to hang out with my ex girlfriend, Macy, for a few months now and she kept blowing me off, it turns out she thinks I'm madly in love with her and trying to "steal her away from her girlfriend", and she got all this from me asking her to hang out? I mean I love the girl, but I'm not out to fuck her just because I'm trying to talk to her, but it explains why she blows me off every time I try to make plans with her, I mean, I still think she's cute, I think she's a totally doll, but I can think girls are hot without wanting to date them, even if I have dated them before. And this shit has been grating on my mind ever since her friend told me about her saying this because I just don't fucking get it. But, if she's going to be immature about this shit even though we've been broken up for over 2 years, than I'm just going to let her, she can call me when she grows up a bit. She should know enough by now that I'm a fucking flirt, I flirt with anyone whose hot, it doesn't mean I want them to jump into bed with me, it's just my damn personality.
I feel like I'm just kind of going on rants right now, whatever. I found out today that my ex bestfriend gained 40 pounds, I laughed my ass off because he's such a dick, he's cruel to people, so he really deserved it, it's probably not very nice of me to laugh, and karma may kick my ass for it later, but at least it kicked his first.
Anyway, I wanted to post, and point out that I really am still alive, and I really do love posting on here, but since the month of October is a crazy fucking mess, I've been a bit irresponsible with my Suicide Girls account. So here's me promising to try harder to update in my future, even if no one reads this...I'll still feel good that I wrote it, ha.
Just needing to Bitch.
I guess I'll close this with a poem/song/whatever I wrote a few months back
xoxoxoxoxo
MARAUDER
Snow White
I hushed her to sleep as she screamed at the night,
Oh darling, be silenced, you're mine, you're mine
I howl to the moon and I've lost sense of sight,
Oh sleep in the shadows, my dearest Snow White
She'll hide from the hounds when they thirst at her blood,
Lips matching the wounds that you gave her with love.
The moon falls from her eyes as she cries,
Matching the promise with bitter sweet lies,
Whispering secrets into the night,
Will you make it out alive, Snow White?
You can't take a bite of the forbidden fruit
Without suffering the beauty of telling the truth
He'll find you, He'll find you, don't bother to hide
Do you look like a princess on the inside?
Would you leave if we kissed, would I be dismissed?
Would you love me no longer if it ended like this?
If your blood was draining, would you bother to die?
You bleed on the snow as you pray to the sky
What happened in the forest that night, Snow White?
Did you cry? Did you cry? Did you bleed til you died?
If I cut you wide open, would you still be mine?
Don't give me your word my dearest Snow White,
Don't tell me you're sorry just to end the fight,
You're screaming you're pure, but doll, are you sure?
He took all the vanity that you held onto before
Do you have the blood left in you to scream?
Oh, go back to sleep darling, it's just a dream
Don't worry about the wicked old witch,
Ripping your heart apart stitch by stitch
With your hair as dark as the forboding night,
Where's your disguise this time, Snow White?
She can tell, she can tell, she knows you so well!
She's dragging you back down to your own personal hell
Oh darling, what a dress! Not quite fit for a princess,
Revealing yourself with such a despicable depth
Does the prince see your beauty?
He grabs at it so cruelly,
You're improper, my love, you're covered in blood
Right down to the wound penetrating your gut
Poor darling, I love you, Poor darling, Don't cry
Poor darling you never were quite the right size,
Screaming your secrets into the night...
You never were alive, Snow White...
Things have been super crazy lately, I feel like there isn't enough time in a day anymore, and I've been spending a lot of time hiding under covers lately, I think it's just the weather, cold is nice, and wet is nice, but when you combine them together, I want to stay at home and drink hot tea and watch movies, venturing outside in this weather just seems ridiculous, but alas, I must go to work whether I like it or not, because unfortunately, money is kind of something that's not easy to live without...plus, I really want to go sexy lingerie shopping lately, and I can't do that when I'm poor...so bring on the cold, wet weather...as long as there's a paycheck coming my way.
I realized the other day that I used to write songs and poetry so much more often but I feel like I just can't find the time for it anymore, I really should get back into it, I do love writing, it's just one of those things I find so very enjoyable.
I got really pissed off the other night because I've been trying to hang out with my ex girlfriend, Macy, for a few months now and she kept blowing me off, it turns out she thinks I'm madly in love with her and trying to "steal her away from her girlfriend", and she got all this from me asking her to hang out? I mean I love the girl, but I'm not out to fuck her just because I'm trying to talk to her, but it explains why she blows me off every time I try to make plans with her, I mean, I still think she's cute, I think she's a totally doll, but I can think girls are hot without wanting to date them, even if I have dated them before. And this shit has been grating on my mind ever since her friend told me about her saying this because I just don't fucking get it. But, if she's going to be immature about this shit even though we've been broken up for over 2 years, than I'm just going to let her, she can call me when she grows up a bit. She should know enough by now that I'm a fucking flirt, I flirt with anyone whose hot, it doesn't mean I want them to jump into bed with me, it's just my damn personality.
I feel like I'm just kind of going on rants right now, whatever. I found out today that my ex bestfriend gained 40 pounds, I laughed my ass off because he's such a dick, he's cruel to people, so he really deserved it, it's probably not very nice of me to laugh, and karma may kick my ass for it later, but at least it kicked his first.
Anyway, I wanted to post, and point out that I really am still alive, and I really do love posting on here, but since the month of October is a crazy fucking mess, I've been a bit irresponsible with my Suicide Girls account. So here's me promising to try harder to update in my future, even if no one reads this...I'll still feel good that I wrote it, ha.
Just needing to Bitch.
I guess I'll close this with a poem/song/whatever I wrote a few months back
xoxoxoxoxo
MARAUDER
Snow White
I hushed her to sleep as she screamed at the night,
Oh darling, be silenced, you're mine, you're mine
I howl to the moon and I've lost sense of sight,
Oh sleep in the shadows, my dearest Snow White
She'll hide from the hounds when they thirst at her blood,
Lips matching the wounds that you gave her with love.
The moon falls from her eyes as she cries,
Matching the promise with bitter sweet lies,
Whispering secrets into the night,
Will you make it out alive, Snow White?
You can't take a bite of the forbidden fruit
Without suffering the beauty of telling the truth
He'll find you, He'll find you, don't bother to hide
Do you look like a princess on the inside?
Would you leave if we kissed, would I be dismissed?
Would you love me no longer if it ended like this?
If your blood was draining, would you bother to die?
You bleed on the snow as you pray to the sky
What happened in the forest that night, Snow White?
Did you cry? Did you cry? Did you bleed til you died?
If I cut you wide open, would you still be mine?
Don't give me your word my dearest Snow White,
Don't tell me you're sorry just to end the fight,
You're screaming you're pure, but doll, are you sure?
He took all the vanity that you held onto before
Do you have the blood left in you to scream?
Oh, go back to sleep darling, it's just a dream
Don't worry about the wicked old witch,
Ripping your heart apart stitch by stitch
With your hair as dark as the forboding night,
Where's your disguise this time, Snow White?
She can tell, she can tell, she knows you so well!
She's dragging you back down to your own personal hell
Oh darling, what a dress! Not quite fit for a princess,
Revealing yourself with such a despicable depth
Does the prince see your beauty?
He grabs at it so cruelly,
You're improper, my love, you're covered in blood
Right down to the wound penetrating your gut
Poor darling, I love you, Poor darling, Don't cry
Poor darling you never were quite the right size,
Screaming your secrets into the night...
You never were alive, Snow White...
wingnut1919:
Thanks for the add!