It's funny because I don't really ever re-read half the stuff I write in blogs lol. I literally just write it all down as if I was having a conversation with myself and let it go out into the wild (you guys)
This morning I've spent a good hour reading through some of my super old blogs here, mostly because I was looking for a specific one which contained the first chapter of a story I have been writing. I still haven't written down chapter 2. But as I was reading through, it's interesting to see how I've changed as a person. You never really notice you change until you look through old photos or read things you've written. I mean old photos make it obvious because you're like "dang...why did I ever wear that?" But reading old writings provides a look more into your soul. I've noticed my soul has changed since I've started SG.
When I began my journey on SG, I was incredibly shy....I had no idea what to blog about so my blogs were random thoughts...literally just phrases that popped into my head at the time of me writing them. This was back in 2013. I was anxioius about showing my body because I was incredibly insecure about it. I've always been skinny...I don't really have curves...I'm just a straight figure. Then as I joined groups, talked to people and released photo sets....I grew. Not just becoming more secure with myself but I've become accepting of who I am. I can talk to people here without feeling judged because I think a certain way or like certain things. Because of SG I've pushed myself to do more artwork and I've actually been selling it....it's taken me 30 years to sell a piece of art, yet I've been drawing all my life....because I never thought it was good enough to sell.
I've started a Patreon so I can share my personal life with others and play video games with others and start a community that based on what I love. I never even thought I'd be able to do that. I've never been confident enough to do it but SG has made me a better person. A confident person and a secure person.
It's ok to be who you are. It's ok to be silly, dumb and random. Looking back at my very first set to now....I can see myself how I've grown...even in the photos. But reading the blogs has really touched me this morning....pulled at my heartstrings a bit. I totally forgot I blogged about my sisters death and reading it now, 2 years later....I didn't even realize that's how I've been feeling. Because I just write.
I can't thank SG enough for being such an amazing community and allowing me to be a part of it and giving me opportunities that other places never have! I don't plan on leaving any time soon and I have many more photos coming and blogs! I wish I had the time to blog more like I used to.
But Mara is here to stay!
xoxox
only 2 more months for this set!
