luridsky

I've noticed something recently. I've never just been me to other people, I've never had someone say "oh hey you're Ashleigh right?" They've always been like "oh you're Kohlers little sister" or "Aren't you Mary's daughter?" This is really starting to bother me. It's almost as though I don't have an identity of my own, people identify me as someone else's relative or friend.

I...
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And now to add injury to insult. . . As if this week weren't going badly enough, I got punched in the face the other night. I was at a friends house and this kid got a bit too out of controll with his alcohol, he was being quite obnoxious so I told him to sit down and shut up before someone called the cops,...
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I know it sounds really selfish and horrible but I realized the other day that I wouldn't be in the situation that I'm in now if my Mom and ex fiance hadn't fucked everything up

And now a look into my past. . .My Mom started abusing morphine when I was 9 she used for 4 years and finally got help when I caught her...
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I'm still not quite myself, I've been thinking a lot about moving lately. The woman that I'm living with told me today that she feels as though I'm taking advantage of her. How I have no idea. She never asked me to pay her rent, she gives me unrealistic goals such as setting an example for her 17 year old daughter (Impossible! the girl does...
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"This isn't love so forever let it go...forever will it burn, This isn't love there on the backend of forever I wish I would never hurt again..." *Co&Ca

I wish I could say that I didn't love him and actually mean it, I know that deep down a part of me does still love him even after everything.

I do wish that I would never...
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How many times does a person need to have their heart broken before they learn to stop wearing it on their sleeve?

It's gonna take awhile to recover from this rejection.

I have nothing left but tears. . .

goodnight

"I'm going to Cali where the bitches is hot and the weather is too!"
A quote from my darling Robert Watson. . .I misses that crazy foo!

Be back in a week!

I found this earlier tonight in a book. . what book I don't rememeber but I absoloutly fell in love with it. Something about it just struck me and I cried. . I actually cried. I guess it just reminded me of him and how much I did for him how much of my life I actually stopped living just so he could live a...
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""IF you feelin like a PIMP go on brush your shoulders off, Ladies is PIMPS too, go on brush your shoulder off..."

That is all. . .oh yeah VIVA SAN DIEGO!

Hasn't anyone else realized yet that this day is sad and pathetic? I mean do you really need a special day set out of every year to tell some one that you love them?! If you do than you're sad as well. Maybe it's cause I'm cynical and a bit on the jaded side that I say this but c'mon people just pick a random...
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