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Fuck life, work, relaionships, friends(whitch i seem to not have many of them anymore). I work to pay bills and find someone to share time with and all that happens is I keep getting crapped on. I have nothing and no one so whats the point.
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Moved back to Green Bay, WI 2 months ago and seem to be happy with the move. Meeting some new people, still don't have internet so i can't be on here as much as I want to. I still have to find somewhere to live and then I should be set for getting internet. Thats all I have for now for those who care.
paperdress:
hey smile
lovehate666:
Whats up? hows IL. I'm stoked to be back around family.
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So I'm supose to go home tomorrow to see the folks for Easter, however I found out that I don't have the money to do so. I guess I could always ask them for a loan til pay day but that seems way to hard. I mean I'm 27 and am supose to be independent now, plus my mom dosen't have a job so it's...
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xalicex:
ahhh mate..... im in kinda the same boat....the financial shit hole one.

we have had to seriously revise our money situ and sort things out....make cut backs etc....just so the bills and rent can get paid.....not the mention the mointain of debt.

u can do it tho.....it just unfortunaly takes time and is no fun whatsoever....but...try not to worry too much....

u gotta eat man....take care of urself ok?
signon:
Don't hit yourself over the head on a timetable for independence. Odds are good your folks weren't at your age.

I know mine's not a truly neutral perspective on life (at the very least, mine's incredibly surreal right now), but I can honestly say that, looking back, all the good stuff I never, ever saw coming. It always sucked when I couldn't see anything good on the horizon, but I enjoyed it when it came.

If you can, try to find a cheap hobby that gets you outdoors and in public. I'm about to take up kiting, for instance, at the whopping cost of $3.00. It's not going to change my life or anything (barring impromptu founding father reenactments), but it's something I enjoyed as a kid and isn't commonplace.

I'm starting to get the idea of how to make my own fun, I think.
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God of War II on PS2 is helping me keep my mind off of cutting. Yeah for me, I guess.
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xalicex:
hows it goin? u still distracting urself?
lovehate666:
Still hanging in there, I still feel down that I have no money to meet new people, or the fact that I still haven't. I feel so alone outside of work. I go to work and it passes the time but then I come home and have been drinking and smoking Camel wide lights playing God of War II or watching TV or movies, still by myself.
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Been staying busy at work and have been feeling good, haven't cut myself in 5 days. I want to thank the few people on here that have talked to me and have staid my on-line friends. kiss
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xalicex:
5 days is a big step....well done!

you have my support
lovehate666:
I wish I could meet more people that lived by me and that had the same problems as me. Its hard to make it more than a week when I have no real friends down here to hang with or talk to.
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I don't feel like I belong on this site and even though I have like 9 months let I don't think I will be around to use use it. Not that I'm going to kill myself I just fucked up some friendships and can't do this to much longer. I post things on groups and get no responses. This site makes me feel more alone...
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honeycrack:
sometimes people just dont know what to say..
paperdress:
I want to messge every one who even lives semi-close to me just to say "whats up? doesn't the midwest suck?" but I don't want to seem creepy. So maybe that's part of the reason people aren't striking up convos with you. or like the above said: they just don't know what to say. Heck, I dunno that's just my guess based on myself. My advice about the group thing is just to join funner, nicer groups. Randomness, Tattoo, Ass Appreciation, Cheese Lovers, any of the TV show groups, Friends of the Friendless, Jokes--any of those that apply to you.

Also, I'm not in a regional group because I figure I'm probably not cool enough... blush I also think that because I was a member of a couple of really brutal boards before joining SG, this one seems friendly as fuck to me!

so anyways, what's up? doesn't the Midwest suck? smile
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SHIT here I go again slipping back into that same depressed state of feeling down and wanting to cut myself to feel better. I was do so good I can't go back here. This sucks!!!! I hate that I feel this helpless and feel the need for this type of release. frown
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signon:
Hey.

What've you been putting off doing for yourself? There's probably something, and I'd say it's time to cash in.
lovehate666:
I have nothing and my life is shit. I know no one down here and just sit around drinking and smoking my camel wide lights. Thats all I have, that and the new tattoo I'm waiting to get.
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I FUCKING hate living in college appartments at age 27, but it'sall I can afford right now. I talk to some of my neighbor but I feel that they don't really get me. I wounder if it's the age thing or something because I really have now real friends down here. I wish I could meet someone to move in with and split cost of...
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makebelieve:
I hated living in college apartments when I was 22...the age difference is a big deal. Don't get me wrong I had my fun. But when it was time to do adult things like study, or go to work, it pissed me off to hear rap music at 5am. (actually rap music pisses me off at any time of the day). But anyway. I hear ya. I can't tell you how to meet people, because it makes me mad as fuck when I hear people telling me to put myself out there. It's just not my style. I have a hard time making friends, but once I do, it's for life. So who knows. Stick it out, don't drink too much.
lovehate666:
I tried posting somethimg like that on the hook up board and some asshole said thats not what it was for or some shit.
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So I haven't cut myself in awhile and have been feel pretty good. I think this has a lot to do with the fact that I have been working a lot, down side is I really don't have time to meet new people. I went to my favorite bar last night with a guy I work with. I was dollars micro-brews and my bartender that...
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I went to my tattoo shop today, I wanted to get some new ink (I still doand am) but got my ears stretched from2's to 0's. Made me feel alittle better, still feel down coming home to an empty apartment and no one to hang out with.
cptpyjama:
You need a pet?
lovehate666:
Can't have any where I live at. frown
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Just walked to the store for more PBR and smokes, spending money I don't have to help kill the pain and sadness.
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lovehate666:
I'm tired of being alone all the time, it feels like everything is falling apart so fast and I can't stop it
serial:
of course youre going to feel like shit... anytime you get out of a long relationship like that, the next step is nothing but shit...

last year, i got out of a really long relationship, and i think i wanted to die so badly, and i did nothing but cry and wonder why my life was so shitty...

i think the best thing to do is keep yourself busy. jump into work, or do things that will keep your mind off of whats really hurting you... and i bet, itll fade...

hun, your life is only going to fall apart if you let it... and yeah, i know thats easier for me to say than for you to follow...
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I thought that I would be able to talk to people easier on here knowing that you can't and will never meet in real life, but it's not. I feel worse after posting in the boards, groups, hell even in my blog page then when I log on. My life is shit right now and I have no one to talk to about it even...
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