I've looked at some posts and all. You know, well you don't. Really I am just that crazy. I thought I would look for a place to post my innnermost feelings. Yeah... well if you spend time reading this mayhaps you are more mentally deranged than I :-). I reallly messed something in my neck, or in the parlance of our times fucked it really hard. Anyway I was sooo happy today when my boss asked me what was wrong and I esplained that I hurt so bad I was focusing on my breathing so I wouldn't passout. No I'm not faking or bsing. I really hurt so bad I couldn't focus my eyesight and began to worry about whether or not I would pass out. LOL I'm posting this here because onlly one person knows me here irl. So reallly if you read this other than that one person it doesn't really matter. You might be happy its not you or really just not care. Anyway I got to say I almost passed out at work from pain today! I can't say that to my family or friends or I might get hospitalized. Lol its funny the people I love can never know how I hurt. I know a few people who might actually cry over it... I couldn't hurt someone like that so I post here. Its my one small way of expressing myself without hurting anyone. btw... prollly more pain and tales emotional and physicial to come.. .... If you care about people and are a masocist bookmark this or otherwise you might want to forget it. 