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The word Anime is evil because it looks like Annie.

Imagine.

If Annie did an Anime style video.

!!!!!

Anyway, this entry is more for me to get all my "I'm moving" thoughts out because we're getting close to the point of no return. You can skip it probably, unless you're curious about the place I'm considering.

I looked at the girl's place this morning (I will call her A to make life easier, though the letter A can be confusing but it shouldn't be that hard) and was a bit disappointed and put off because it's an old place and the paint jobs that the old tenants did are horrible and it's kind of dark and dreary in an older section of townhouses.

But she only moved in two months ago and she said she could get my rooms repainted real quick depending on how soon I would want to move in.

There are no phone jacks in either of the rooms I'd be occupying. I'd have to bring the wireless hub & router (I think "hub" is the wrong word) and hope to God the signal would come through from the basement to the top floor. Redbeard3 showed me a site for making one's own antennae to boost signals. I may have to resort to doing that if she's willing to have some "ghetto" (as they say) tinfoil antennae on the hub. Or just BEG her to get a phone jack put in the room that would be my office.

Mom showed me another classified ad for another place going for $600/month. I called and left a message, haven't heard back.

It sounds like I really don't want to move in with A. I'm still not sure and I'll have to sleep on it. I have to realize that A has only lived there two months and once she gets things repainted and repaired it should be nicer.

The rooms are so small.

But there are two of them.

And it looks as though I could fit all my furniture in my rooms. I'll have to go back and measure the rooms or ask her to measure them. I just measured all my furniture.

It's a nice location, just a walk away from the post office and library*, and very very close to therapy. Convenient. It may even be closer to my psychiatrist. Let me check. Okay it's slightly closer in miles but it says it takes a couple extra minutes to get there. Maybe it'd go faster if I took 270. Actually 270 is pretty far from her place. I'd be going really far out of my way. Buh.

But back to the post office and the library. I'm not sure how many accolades I've given those places in this journal. I'm sure I have mentioned them both many times.

I have a special fondness for the post office and the library. I send a decent amount of packages. I enjoy sending packages to friends. Bookcrossing also contributes to my package-sending habits. I also enjoy going to the library because I think the whole checking out books for free thing is fun and cool (yay for being a nerd ).

Imagine, if I were to move in with A and I were still living there by the time I try with all my might to graduate next year, I'd have the library right there to study. Though I bet A's place would be even quieter. And besides, I'm probably going to do most of my schoolwork behind a computer screen anyway. ARGH LET'S NOT THINK TOO FAR TO THE FUTURE OKAY

Part of me just wants to take A's rooms and end the stress. The other part wants to look at at least one other place.

But we're a fairly good match on personality too, and she's had a hard time finding people who aren't weirdos. Not that I'm not a weirdo, but she seems to think I'm pretty normal. And I'd make an effort not to be antisocial.

THIS IS NERVE-WRACKINGGGGGGGGGG

I have to remember that the point is I'm getting away from my mother. Mom has come with me to both these places I've looked at, and on the way there and on the way back, and at our breakfast this morning, I was reminded over and over again why I have to get away. The woman drives me nuts. I mean yeah I love her, but gah! She's not easy to live with. I mentioned before the loud obnoxiousness of mom's side of the family and how I don't fit in with that. Well A is nice and quiet. I need quiet.

At this point I hope I wake up tomorrow and decide I want to move in with her and that will be that. The indecision is making me crazy.

I'm thinking that any other place I go to will not give me as much space as I'd be getting with A. I'd probably only be getting one small room with anyone else, as opposed to two small rooms (though the ad mom showed me today was for a master bedroom... but they haven't called back). I'd probably have to sacrifice my furniture if I went elsewhere. I'd definitely have to sacrifice my furniture if I moved in with that family.

I've decided I couldn't handle living with a family. Too weird. I called their house today to tell them I wasn't coming over today and the teenaged daughter answered and it was awkward. I should have asked to talk to her mom or dad but I wanted off the phone fast.

In A's place, my bathroom is basically right across the hall. Again it's a bath not just a shower. There's a linen closet right by my door and she'd make room in there for my things.

The laundry units are down in the basement (as I said the rooms that would be mine are on the top floor) but I can live with that. It's a small compromise to make to live in a place where I have room for all my furniture.

She has two cats, the one who was around was so sweet and a very pretty kitty. The other one was hiding, perhaps because A had just vacuumed. A realizes there will be some hissing and fighting when the cats are introduced. That's good. The mother of that other family seemed to think the cats would hit it off immediately. Highly dubious.

Now that it's later and I'm more convinced I should move in with A, I'm starting to think about what color I'd want my rooms. Now, blue is my favorite color but I've heard that it's also a depressing color for a room. I suppose that depends on the shade of it. I do NOT want white. I'm in a white room and I don't like it. It's boring. And depressing. The rest of our condo is a pale blue, but it's so pale it might as well be white.

I was thinking a pale shade of green. Something that reminds me of the cool serenity of nature.

I should paint my room BLACK LIKE MY SOUL

Really though, the right shade of green (a very pale shade?) might be okay. I also know I don't want the bedroom and office to be the same color. I want to switch it up.

As I was walking with mom earlier I was even considering a shade of orange. And thought to myself that orange is unheard of and thus quickly disabused myself of that notion. I do NOT want yellow. No, no, no. Too institutional. Ah. Maybe a pale purple. Very pale.

You know, lately I've been drinking limeade (of course) as well as cran-raspberry juice. Green and purple. There you go. Well, the cran-rasp is a bit more on the red side. Close enough. I'd sleep in limeade and work in cran-raspberry. Not bad.

Maybe I should go for the gusto and go for some not-so-pale shades of green and purple. As long as they aren't oppressively dark.

Not sure about that green though. I'd have to do some serious scrutinizing of some paint samples to find a shade that I wouldn't mind sleeping in and playing video games in. The TV w/vid games would go in the bedroom. It wouldn't fit in the office.

I kind of like that, you know. Having an "office". It makes it sound like I'd be doing productive things in there, when really I'd just be doing the same as always, sitting on my ass writing long journal entries and chatting with a few people.

My books would be in there. I love that I have two bookshelves. One of them, the back is missing so it's all lopsided. Not sure what to do about that. I guess if it comes to it I could pack up all my books in boxes, take down the one bookshelf with a back, slip out the back and bring it to a home repair place and they could just cut out a matching piece. Yeah? Geez. How would I drive that thing to a home repair place? I guess I'd have to strap it to the roof. Gah. Maybe my previous idea of getting its measurements and having them cut a matching piece in the store would be better. But still... how to transport it?

I would of course bring my Annie poster with me. May even make another one to commemorate the new place. Then I could have one in the office as well as the bedroom.

Annie's doing a show near Philadelphia on a Saturday next month (Sept 24) that's just a three hour drive from here. AND she's the main act as opposed to the opening act. I am so going. May sell my ticket for the NYC show. Wait for next entry for more on that.

Nervousssssssss.

Can I do this?