Sleeping under a bridge, with like 10 other dirty homeless kids. lost this strange soul that wandered around me for almost a year, before he left you could see his teeth rotting and his eyes turn red. I'm glad he's dead now. My van still lives in the impound. I wake up under the bridge and its really funny cause its on this jogging path...
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fuck fuck fuck.
i just got out of jail again.
just chilling in central booking.
they gave me a camping ticket for sleeping in my van and then they towed it away with ALL of my shit in it. I mean i have nothing but the dirty ass clothes i'm wearing. And i have no ID or money to get it out of impound. If...
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i just got out of jail again.
just chilling in central booking.
they gave me a camping ticket for sleeping in my van and then they towed it away with ALL of my shit in it. I mean i have nothing but the dirty ass clothes i'm wearing. And i have no ID or money to get it out of impound. If...
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creampuff:
"survivalists can live without anything". this fucking right on chick said that. i believe she can, long as she's got her visions in her head and a pencil nearby. keep it sharp. hang in there, lily. peace.
joscelyne:
Woah. That really sucks...I don't know what else to say that everyone else hasn't already. But I hope you get everything back, and wish you the best.
I do believe in suicide when dreams are all dead.
"Don't talk to me of the valley of the shadow of death, I live there"-Mumia
He asked me if i could be any more depressing with arms bruised and mutilated by little syringes. It made it even more ironic that it was sunny out and little babies played in the dirt thinking life was beautiful....
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"Don't talk to me of the valley of the shadow of death, I live there"-Mumia
He asked me if i could be any more depressing with arms bruised and mutilated by little syringes. It made it even more ironic that it was sunny out and little babies played in the dirt thinking life was beautiful....
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hellocentral:
that's beautiful.
thora:
Are you planning a trip to Minn? That's where Apox is based. I'm still in touch with Hope; I can email her about you iif you'd like. That band is full of drama, but as long as you don't date any members you should be fine. 
Have you seen their site? www.apox.tv. Your energy and persona would fit in so well with their spirit and ideals. Really. If you can sing, dance, juggle, whatever, they'd LOVE to have you. It's a crusty goth punk gypsy caravan.
I think they're not allowed to spin fire any more on tour, though.
Have you seen their site? www.apox.tv. Your energy and persona would fit in so well with their spirit and ideals. Really. If you can sing, dance, juggle, whatever, they'd LOVE to have you. It's a crusty goth punk gypsy caravan.
I think they're not allowed to spin fire any more on tour, though.
back on the side of the road with a cardboard sign and upset insides. do you really believe in love? I just know this strange tradgedy unravelling over these roads, these train tracks, this country. But we all still know love, just in a reconstructed and bitter form. I met this girl last night fresh out of the mental institution in pink high heels. she...
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twwly:
And Aileen makes me happy, too.
cellosoul:
any way you can find it
You don't know lifes tattered edges cutting you beneath your feet. 6 am my time hallucinating talking to a lost friend that stole all your secrets and left them on the answering machine. she breathes heavy stomping on her floors, hair is crazy like medusa, we both see snakes everywhere when i open little white letters, typed in small dark letters he says he saw...
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mostwanted76:
Hey kid I'm just starting to explore this SG thing, your a special kind of person the kind that trys everything twice insted of once just incase you did't like it the first time.some of the best things in life are unpleasent at first. Am I right?comment me back I bet we could swap storys sometime?
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[Edited on Mar 11, 2004 6:34PM]
jesykasaint:
I am moved by your writing. your a spy in the underworld.
and when you want to you can come out of the cold.
I respect and will care for you..till your ready to go.
and when you want to you can come out of the cold.
I respect and will care for you..till your ready to go.
i rode motorcycles with a dying old man, all across the texas desert all day today sweating out something strange while i talked to old ladies with voices in their heads at anonymous meetings. Ray crossed corners like he was invincible, but the doctor says he's dying. I put my arms around him real tight, even when we weren't turning cause i could feel his...
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whitepimp:
hey beautiful, I just sent you the phone # you asked for to your email address. If you can't afford to call me give me a number I can reach you at and I'll call you there. Looking forward to your call. Much Love.
the_green_monk:
U ARE SO COOL!
You always get me all emotional with your journal entries.
How can u be so strong and tender at the same time?
I hope Idon't sound like a nerd.
Be safe.
You always get me all emotional with your journal entries.
How can u be so strong and tender at the same time?
I hope Idon't sound like a nerd.
Be safe.
too much blood and johnny cash. been sleeping in my van with this one kid. forgot about the bruises. i really need 15 dollars. i want to go roll some UT kid. hang on to your wallets frat boys. I cut my hand trying to rob someone the other day. it was really funny. I masterbate to the thought of joan of arc.
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mamabunny:
Let me come get you. My arms are open, and so is my door.
mileseyes:
Lily you rock, and i love your entries when your all poetic.
fucking sick. feels just like the flu but its not. I had to deal with the cops last night at 2 in the morning, I almost went back to jail because of this fucking psychopath. I was trying to hit him with beer bottles and cans of soup. I wanted to make him bleed.
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spamhain:
yeah wow i'm a slut huh. thank you very much. i got 2 new tattoos one is the danzig skull in flames, and the other is the figure on the lagacy of brutality album. they're awesome i'm working on a sleeve. but anyway i wanna come and see you but i don't know where you are. i'll talk to you later. i love you lily
L8r
Casper
L8r
Casper
debrajean:
yeah, you gotz my numberz, did you get my message?
and somewhere everywhere you wake up to the sound of the loudspeakers and the guard unlocks your cell only to release you into a bigger cage. It has something to do with psychology and mathematics. my liver is swollen from beer and disease, drinking with nazi's in alleyways. where did you come from? not my side of the planet. woke up in a van on...
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whitepimp:
when my hoes come up to me complaining about how they need some mo money, I usually say, "bitch! go suck some mo dick! and bring me my money!"
~ White Pimp
~ White Pimp
flotsomandjetsom:
was the van down by the river?
We speak the same language only in theory. bruised flashback telling untold tales of things unsaid, but you knew you had to be there. in this car, on this train, hitchhiking through nevada on a hot summer day, walking aimlessly on this artificial beach while broken shards of seashells tore up the soft parts of thee bottom of your feet but you still smiled pretty...
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nishgriff:
By the way, have you read Ginsberg's "Howl for Carl Solomon"?.... Ahem...
'I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked,
dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry fix,
angelheaded hipsters burning for the ancient heavenly connection to the starry dynamo in the machinery of night..'
'I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked,
dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry fix,
angelheaded hipsters burning for the ancient heavenly connection to the starry dynamo in the machinery of night..'
winter_____:
You make me miss the road.
everybody wanna save my soul
don't nobody wanna save my life
don't nobody wanna save my life
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menotyou:
You can find souls for sale on ebay...it's a little harder to find lives.
whitepimp:
you seem sad. 
I'd give you a hug if I could. And I'm not going to bother to try to make you feel better with words cause you already know I feel about you.
a free soul like you shouldn't have a electronic monitor around your wrist; that's a crime. What did you do that got you in so much trouble?
That's not true, what your journal above says, people care about you and want the best for you and you know it. Toilet Tooth is right, the soul and life are the same thing. You really need to stop being so hard on yourself, you need to stop hurting yourself with those needles, I think you have an addiction to sadness, it's more comfortable for you that way for some reason. If you want your life saved only you can do it, there ain't no one who can live it for you.
If I could do anything, I would want to make you smile, even if it was for just a second.
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I'd give you a hug if I could. And I'm not going to bother to try to make you feel better with words cause you already know I feel about you.
a free soul like you shouldn't have a electronic monitor around your wrist; that's a crime. What did you do that got you in so much trouble?
That's not true, what your journal above says, people care about you and want the best for you and you know it. Toilet Tooth is right, the soul and life are the same thing. You really need to stop being so hard on yourself, you need to stop hurting yourself with those needles, I think you have an addiction to sadness, it's more comfortable for you that way for some reason. If you want your life saved only you can do it, there ain't no one who can live it for you.
If I could do anything, I would want to make you smile, even if it was for just a second.
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I was supposed to move in with this 51 year old biker in the ghetto yesterday. Maybe he'll still let me move in with him, he makes really cool paintings and goes to AA meetings as much as a crackhead sells stolen radios. The ghetto is where the birth of my crush took place in america after the CIA took it off the airplanes, but...
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wan:
it's been a few years for me but i wouldn't sweat the hepc too much. i swear to god the routine went, 'intravenous mexican brown? oh, you've got it.' i'm not saying it doesn't exist but i've seen people spend bundles trying horrible things akin to cancer cures, watched a buddy get his spine tapped trying to figure out what the fuck, and seen it mysteriously disappear from a pregnant friend. i'm cheap and just ostrich-like. i ignored it and don't seem too much the worse for wear.
i've seen quite a few hiv deaths and i know it's not pretty. things are much better than they used to be though-those drugs have improved if you can get them, people live a lot longer and it's not an automatic death sentence like it was in the 80s.
i spend eons of time dreaming (sh-boom).
i've seen quite a few hiv deaths and i know it's not pretty. things are much better than they used to be though-those drugs have improved if you can get them, people live a lot longer and it's not an automatic death sentence like it was in the 80s.
i spend eons of time dreaming (sh-boom).
toiletooth:
when you gonna get off
this
heroin mistress kick?
it sucks.
and your brown sugar wasn't even cool
when ZZTOP sang about it.
you fucking sous,
get over it and get clean or stay clean if you are.
cos you're stealing your own life.
and i've seen people quit that.
so what is your excuse for putting
YOU
on the back burner?
go ahead get mad.
but you're too smart to keep breaking your own heart.
and
i believe in you.
this
heroin mistress kick?
it sucks.
and your brown sugar wasn't even cool
when ZZTOP sang about it.
you fucking sous,
get over it and get clean or stay clean if you are.
cos you're stealing your own life.
and i've seen people quit that.
so what is your excuse for putting
YOU
on the back burner?
go ahead get mad.
but you're too smart to keep breaking your own heart.
and
i believe in you.
My...how things have changed...
What you need is to have Richard Kern make a huge, beautifully dark star out of you.....I'll buy all your movies, even the good ones.