lillithvain

Answering questions for inquiring minds:

1. No those are not contacts... my eyes are green all the time, though I do wear clear contacts because I'm blind as a bat.

2. I am a natural redhead....The curtains match the drapes thing...

3. The chapters are from the novel I have written. It is not a factual part of my life, nor do I have any desire to ever shoot drugs into my body.

4. The story is complete....I have finished the entire thing already and I have it laying around my house on various disc's and things.

5. If you steal my story I will come to your home and I will gut you in your sleep! Then I will eat your intestines with a spoon!

6. I absolutely hate my freckles...though it seems that everyone else likes them. I spent a very good chunk of my life trying different concoctions trying to get rid of them. None of them worked, and now that I am older I have learned to live with them, but I still don't like them. (The grass is always greener).



I got my butt kicked today:!

I want to my jujitsu tournament in Sarasota and wrestled this Amazon chick! Now, mind you it's kinda a fetish wrestling thing, but we are actually taught martial arts and wrestling moves. So, there are no weight classes or anything. My first match was this girl that was twice my size. She was like 5'9 maybe 5'8... 145-150 and pretty damn solid. Now, for people who don't realize this because of the pictures...I am not very big. I'm only 5'5 and I weigh like 115lbs soaking wet... Needless to say...my entire body aches after that one. I nearly took her in the first round, but I was just worn out after the first 5 minutes of it. I took her back, had my hooks in, my arms around her throat....but she was so strong that she could have just picked me up and carried me around attached to her! I gave it my all, and I have the bruises to prove it!!!!

Now, let me tell you how much a klutz I am.... before the match I was stretching and rolling and stuff and I accidentally kicked myself in the face...well kneed myself rather... My left jaw is very sore and swollen up. I look like I had a root canal or something!

New Years Eve

And what will I be doing....nope not watching the sky to see if the world is going to end...that's 2007 or so my friend IsisWynter says to me. I'm going to be working all night! With sore muscles, bruises, and a swollen cheek.... Such is my amusing luck! Oh well.

I do you all have a great time tonight, and try not to drive around intoxicated. Take care of yourselves, there is enough needless death and pain in this world without having to add you to the list. Have a good time, but be CAREFUL!!!

I'll leave you tonight with this poem:
@1999
Eagles Point
A lovely expanse of green, brown, and light
A place within a place, unnoticed by those who drive by
Winding ground, pebble by pebble, uprooted by times love
Strayed puddles of muddied earth, rain beaten shoved
Towering protective greens filtering out the sun
Tangles of vine and bark never to be undone
A peak upon a crimson gap of time
Eagles and wings, greens, lemons, and limes
Rocky stairs littered with crabs of grass
Splits in the trails, places people always pass
Cool wind and white snow on its once green lays
Ice coated puddles where I used to play
Pebbles and stones hidden by white
Leafless lovely trees no longer forbidding the light
Branches held heavy in cool winters grasp
Grizzly bears asleep, there cold breath coming in rasps
Slippery peaks that reach to the sky
White winter has come, and all flowers must die
My breast is now filled with lingering lust
All soft things turning iron with red velvet rust
A pleasant moment, love lost in my mind
I leave all the present and troubles behind
All the flowers so lovely
All the grass so green
All the warmth, all the love, and the sweet smell of things

For that little bit of hippy in us all!

One more for the spooky is us all:

A Thought For You

The thought of you crosses my mind on occasion tumbling through my head like fallen leaves in the wind, blown this way and that in search of a place to rest. I resurrect your visage through polluted eyes, transplanting it into the vast emptiness of my mentality, swirling it about in confusion, and hurling it out onto those who dare trespass my contemplations.
I defy shattered memories of yesterdays gone by when I glance into your eyes and mistakenly see myself in portions of a damaged soul. Those are not thoughts of contemporary sentiment lurking in the darkened corners of passion hungry eyes. Life has become an off white room occupied with jaded shadows.
I allow you to persecute me with undemanding kindness and abundant saccharine kisses. Your breath cascades into my gaping ravenous mouth probing for access into my heart. Your toxins dispense into my skin invading my pores with bitter disappointment for I cannot keep you at bay. My lifeless soul cannot tolerate the anguish of telling you no.
Dead hands in my hair, sweat drenched, back-to-back on the austere pallid sheets under a canopy of fabrication. Your unavailable masochism drowning my melancholy pessimistic views in torrents of pleasurable pain causes me blissful distress. You embrace me in promises too audacious to be reserved.
Frustration is the bearer of indulgence in malevolent eyes and velvet crimson lips glistening with life. You drip into my womb extending your impaling disease throughout eternity, vacating yourself into my world of seduction. Together we initiate the pleasures of the flesh: biting, ripping, tearing, begging, and bleeding.
There is no way out for the forgotten.


Happy New Year All!!!!!!