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ONCE AGAIN.... IF YOU KNOW ME IN DENTON DONT READ THIS!! AND DONT SAY I DIDNT WARN YOU....







ugh.... pothead girlfriend of our singer getting me down..... damn yoko.... heh heh.....

this girl is so funky..... while she's quite sweet, i cant stand the fact that she has to get other people aroud while she smokes... we (me, nate, andrew(singer) and tick(drummer) ) were at the mall making a scene, and she calls up andrew and says she wants to smoke a joint... and apparently she cant do it on her own and needs some help so she gets us to all go to nate's apartment, and smoke a stinky joint.... and thats just one thing that i cant stand is that she makes a point of taking time out of someone elses life so that she can do something that i have no interest in and dont want any part of.... arghhhhhhh.... shes the reason that i missed the cky show last month... god... i just really dont want to be around her, i dont want to like her, and i want to be allowed to dislike her, and say bad things about her....

i want to hate...
i want to hate her....
i want to tell her to quit being so nice, and cuss me out
i want to say "go the ___ away",
i want to flush her drugs down the toilet,
i want to tell her she's a bad person for trying to get me to do drugs...
i wanna tell her to leave nate alone, and dont offer him drugs...
i wanna fire our vocalist, take back the name Rosencrantz & guildensterN and forget about them....


I WANNA BREATH SMOKE
but hopefully these feelings will pacify....

i havent felt this way since the cky show...i felt the same way when my best girlfriend lit up a joint right infront of me, knowing that she wants to quit, and that she's a believer too....

.....i dont like myself right now...

..."sunny days, where have you gone? i get the strangest feeling, you belong...."