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thelastbeliever:
Thats expensive 
thelastbeliever:
Thats not too bad then i guess 
i liked that last entry, but it's time to move on.
Move on to less happy and therefore less interesting things.
i feel like i want to cry. almost all of the time. home, work, where ever.
went to one of my old haunts this afternoon and the smell there was staggering. it always is. i sat in my car, gathering up the strength to...
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Move on to less happy and therefore less interesting things.
i feel like i want to cry. almost all of the time. home, work, where ever.
went to one of my old haunts this afternoon and the smell there was staggering. it always is. i sat in my car, gathering up the strength to...
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buckknuckle:
You would be a hot Tom Jones. I would so try to feel your package. 
a few things today.
Thing A. Rockapella tonight! yay!
Thing B. Ani's new album .rules.
'i'm holding here a book
notable, but not the greatest
stolen for me by the latest
in a long line of thieves
and i'm just about to drop it
down that manhole of memories
when i realize it doesn't bother me
like love's mementos usually do
and i...
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Thing A. Rockapella tonight! yay!
Thing B. Ani's new album .rules.
'i'm holding here a book
notable, but not the greatest
stolen for me by the latest
in a long line of thieves
and i'm just about to drop it
down that manhole of memories
when i realize it doesn't bother me
like love's mementos usually do
and i...
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disdain:
rockapella 
voicemale
yep, saw the cabana boy. then we had a bit of a freak out & i ended up going home... undebauched.
oi. oi. oi. oi. (the "oi"s are cuz i'm a dyke-jew... or jew-dyke or whatever.) anyhoo, he said he'll make me diner and debauch me tonight... we'll see...
voicemale
yep, saw the cabana boy. then we had a bit of a freak out & i ended up going home... undebauched.
oi. oi. oi. oi. (the "oi"s are cuz i'm a dyke-jew... or jew-dyke or whatever.) anyhoo, he said he'll make me diner and debauch me tonight... we'll see...
disdain:
new girl's name = jew-barbie. 
stupid whore!
stupid whore!there is a real journal entry one journal back, but i had this idea and wanted to try it out. If you want to leave me a comment, leave it there. Please just use this for it's intended purpose...
okay so this is going to be a list of books that I intend to read. Feel free to leave me suggestions, comments about the books...
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okay so this is going to be a list of books that I intend to read. Feel free to leave me suggestions, comments about the books...
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buckknuckle:
Reading is for nerds. You should take up hard drugs instead.
You've probably already read what I could recommend. Maybe some WS Maugham. More people should read Maugham. "Of Human Bondage" and "Razor's Edge" put me in a tizzy.
You've probably already read what I could recommend. Maybe some WS Maugham. More people should read Maugham. "Of Human Bondage" and "Razor's Edge" put me in a tizzy.
fatdavid8:
Tristam Shandy, while sometimes amazingly funny and inventive, is too long by 1/4 - 1/3.
One of the problems with reading books by people who have too much time on their hands from the 1700s is that they over-write their novels. However, any book that pisses off Horace Walpole and Dr. Samuel Johnson can't be all bad. I would recommend reading it in fits and starts rather than trying to plow your way straight through. You might want to read more conventional books at the same time as a way to take a sort of Sterne-free breather.
Your book report is due on my desk by Friday. Good luck.
One of the problems with reading books by people who have too much time on their hands from the 1700s is that they over-write their novels. However, any book that pisses off Horace Walpole and Dr. Samuel Johnson can't be all bad. I would recommend reading it in fits and starts rather than trying to plow your way straight through. You might want to read more conventional books at the same time as a way to take a sort of Sterne-free breather.
Your book report is due on my desk by Friday. Good luck.
weird day at work roday.
productive, but... there is something in the air.
bad juju
i dunno.
im just gonna sit back with my bottle o' wine and think happy thoughts
or try to anyway
productive, but... there is something in the air.
bad juju
i dunno.
im just gonna sit back with my bottle o' wine and think happy thoughts
or try to anyway
cayce:
don't mind at all.
as i lay here, alone and unhappy, i wonder how much of my depression is a chemical imbalance, and how much of it is related to feeling stagnant.
can i find out who i really am in a haze of zoloft?
will the answer appear through the fog of some other drug?
i am miserable.
i long to be doing something else with every fiber...
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can i find out who i really am in a haze of zoloft?
will the answer appear through the fog of some other drug?
i am miserable.
i long to be doing something else with every fiber...
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disdain:
good. i'm glad that your new neighbors are hippies... that fact will just make it all the more satisfying when we finally manage to push their peaceful asses over the edge. and oh yes, over the edge they will go. 
i am sublimely numb.
i feel nothing.
i care for nothing.
i love my nothing.
i feel nothing.
i care for nothing.
i love my nothing.
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buckknuckle:
I'm metrosexual or whatevah. I like women, but I'm a total fag every other way. Not a nice fag, but an angry self loathing trailer trash fag. That likes women.
buckknuckle:
AND I go look at a certain picture in S's folder and then touch myself... inappropriately. Visualize THAT! 
i am sad. and i am lonely.
someone find me a boyfriend, please?
someone find me a boyfriend, please?
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disdain:
your self? its probably buried some where...
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[Edited on Jan 19, 2005 7:55PM]
d0bermann:
hey I found a boyfriend for you.
feel like crap today. complete utter crap.
i have no energy, i have a migraine and dont care about anything.
nothing.
i could take life or leave it at this point.
ps. for all of you new comers, please realize that although i am very unhappy, i would never do anything crazy. it just helps to be able to let off steam somewhere...
i have no energy, i have a migraine and dont care about anything.
nothing.
i could take life or leave it at this point.
ps. for all of you new comers, please realize that although i am very unhappy, i would never do anything crazy. it just helps to be able to let off steam somewhere...
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buckknuckle:
All right. I'm gonna start tiling. Feel free to come over, I'll be working for most the afternoon.
buckknuckle:
which ever, call or just show up. I'll try to remain clothed. 
busy day today. i am glad to be keeping busy. i think it make me feel better.
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hypnogogic:
WANT TO COME OUT WITH US ON SATURDAY?
buckknuckle:
You know, we could always barter. Whatcha got to trade?
That guy you work with, I keep forgetting his name, came in and got the dragon finished. I tried to be more chatty, but my chakras needed me to be quiet. Plus, his tattoo was hard to pull off.
ICE STORM! ICE STORM?
That guy you work with, I keep forgetting his name, came in and got the dragon finished. I tried to be more chatty, but my chakras needed me to be quiet. Plus, his tattoo was hard to pull off.
ICE STORM! ICE STORM?
the boss is trying to get me to stay.
i dont want to.
i wont.
they tell me things that make me feel good. but i know they dont matter.
what matters is that i am unhappy.
what matters is that i dont like my job.
i may be good at it, but i certainly dont like it. and after a while, that will show....
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i dont want to.
i wont.
they tell me things that make me feel good. but i know they dont matter.
what matters is that i am unhappy.
what matters is that i dont like my job.
i may be good at it, but i certainly dont like it. and after a while, that will show....
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disdain:
hoo dee hoo
buckknuckle:
Dood, I neeeed to see those videos!
full of self loathing today,
i wish i was someone else.
i wish i was someone else.
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disdain:
and as i tube
i tube
we both kinda' tubed it...
and i tube
"well thats the one thing we tube"
i tube
we both kinda' tubed it...
and i tube
"well thats the one thing we tube"
fatdavid8:
I'd give the self-loathing a bit of a rest. You know, save it up for when you're about to turn 35 and realize you haven't accomplished anything like you wanted to.
DAMN! What am I doing with my life! Jesus had done his best work by the time he was 33! I'm 34, and what do I have to show for it? My age and my waistband are the same! Woo-fucking-hoo!
Hope that cheered you up a bit...
DAMN! What am I doing with my life! Jesus had done his best work by the time he was 33! I'm 34, and what do I have to show for it? My age and my waistband are the same! Woo-fucking-hoo!
Hope that cheered you up a bit...