lackluster

I'm not going to lie. i have this guy. currently. and for a while. but im 20 im not married and im not dead. he's trying to win me back. we still fuck, we still say i love you, we still really mean both. i want to sleep around. and that is FUCKED. and i know it. As slutty as everyone thought i was in highschool, ive only had sex with 4 guys in my life, including the current one.
i invented a term for our relationship: "PROVISIONAL"
which basically means i have the upper hand.
"open"
"casual"
"taking a step back" ....
why do these terms mean nothing to someone who acts suprised everytime i bring up that we are ON A BREAK.