I am all sorts of fucked up! Everytime I take two steps forward I feel like I am taking another three steps back. It doesn't help that my last visit with Sonya was literally physically painful. I don't know if we just weren't vibing or she was pushing me past my comfortable zone. That is why I tried to go with it....cause I know I have to be pushed out of my comfort zone and if that is what it takes for me to get normal than I am down with it. But there are still some things that I want to talk about with her.
I don't know do you ever feel like your life is careening out of control, and you are basically there for the ride? You can try like to corral it, but it is basically impossible for you too.
Have you ever been in the place where you don't trust any emotion you have because you can't tell if it is real or not? Are you really that sad about that thing or not? Are you just being oversensitive? And yes, sorry boys, I think i am in that emotional time right now. I can normally tell when I start craving chocolate and cry at 7th heaven.
What i have learned while being bored at home today is that TV Sucks! And the only thing I really like are HBO documentaries, like American Hollow and Dope Sick Love. And of course the Gauntlet cause I am fucking madly in love with Wes.....he is such an ass, but I can't help it. He is still fucking hot.
Oh and FYI Eric update - he is moving in with the girl he cheated on me with..........yes the one he fucked while we were together, who knew we were together since they were best friends....how cute is that.....
I don't know do you ever feel like your life is careening out of control, and you are basically there for the ride? You can try like to corral it, but it is basically impossible for you too.
Have you ever been in the place where you don't trust any emotion you have because you can't tell if it is real or not? Are you really that sad about that thing or not? Are you just being oversensitive? And yes, sorry boys, I think i am in that emotional time right now. I can normally tell when I start craving chocolate and cry at 7th heaven.
What i have learned while being bored at home today is that TV Sucks! And the only thing I really like are HBO documentaries, like American Hollow and Dope Sick Love. And of course the Gauntlet cause I am fucking madly in love with Wes.....he is such an ass, but I can't help it. He is still fucking hot.
Oh and FYI Eric update - he is moving in with the girl he cheated on me with..........yes the one he fucked while we were together, who knew we were together since they were best friends....how cute is that.....
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I feel like my life is always spiraling out of control, but only financially. In true taurus fashion I panic about money. It's really quite terrible!
It will get better hon.
Where are you in relation to Long Island? The boy is moving to Central Islip (Sp?). His sister and I were giving him endless amounts of crap for the city's name simply because we could.