kozmikgirl

More drama today. More then before, but still about my window.

I learned that nothing motivates people like seeing a cop talking to you on your porch. Now everyone is so eager to get my window fixed.

I told the mom of the boy who did it that I was really "getting freaked out about things" & she replied "Oh... you are a tweaker?" WTF?!!! Is "freaked out" slang for high now? Damn. I am so uncool to the drug slang these days.

I am feeling better though. Walked around the field at my grandma's & layed in the grass & got a rash from it, but I don't care... & there was a guy playing guitar in the distance & it was a kind of blues/rock style. It was nice. & I just layed & looked at the sky & felt like I could live for a thousand years right there in that spot.

And I walked around & looked at the huge hay bails & they were as tall as me almost & then I stared at the hay & was thinking about how nice it was to not be around a single soul... & at that very moment a man walked out from the bushes.

He ended up being pretty nice & he was just looking to see who was playing the music. Scared the shit out of me though.

Then I walked some more & thought about how I don't want to die before I am done developing what I have started. It is scarey to think you might die before you are done finding yourself.. and scarier to think you will die before you get to really know & raise your children.

I am so far behind reading everyone's journals, it is truly pathetic. Still love y'all though... kisses!

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WHAT?!!!

I AM NO LONGER A MEMBER OF SGPDX GROUP?!!! WHAT DID I DO WRONG NOW!!!

I reapplied.

WTF?!!!

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