kozmikgirl

I haven't blown dry my hair yet today & now it looks horribly awful. But, I don't care.

I have also been feeling gloomy, reflective, introspective... you know... personal shit, etc. lately... well, you know I am always like that though.

I often wonder if I have missed out on my soulmate because I act so stupid when I fall for someone hardcore... I act all crazy like an escaped mental patient.

I really liked the poem Dmac had in her journal recently. I am not too into poems & such, but I liked this one...

I think I should have loved you presently,
And given in earnest words I flung in jest;
And lifted honest eyes for you to see,
And caught your hand against my cheek and breast;
And all my pretty follies flung aside
That won you to me, and beneath your gaze,
Naked of reticence and shorn of pride,
Spread like a chart my little wicked ways.
I, that had been to you, had you remained,
But one more waking from a recurrent dream,
Cherish no less the certain stakes I gained,
And walk your memory's halls, austere, supreme,
A ghost in marble of a girl you knew
Who would have loved you in a day or two.

-Edna St. Vincent Millay


I like that poem. It makes me think of someone who probably doesn't care that I care anymore.