Everything around here is getting stupider & stupider-er (see previous entries). NOW they are cutting down trees. Keep in mind that even WITH the tree shading it is about 110 degrees inside most of the apartments (including mine) all summer long no matter what. Fuck.
They already cut the trees down that shaded the dumpster today. That should get nice & stinky & hot &...
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They already cut the trees down that shaded the dumpster today. That should get nice & stinky & hot &...
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frankeng:
you have the points dead on 
cruciatus:
Do stupid people really need a reason to do stupid things? 
Today I had to stay up after I got up at 7am & wait for plumbers. I got all purdy & hoped that they would be as cute as a former plumber I know.
I am still very drowsey & I feel a bit drunk of tiredness. Forgive me if I don't make any sense or can't spell for shit.
They were cute enough... still...
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I am still very drowsey & I feel a bit drunk of tiredness. Forgive me if I don't make any sense or can't spell for shit.
They were cute enough... still...
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doozer:
Correcting others work, eh? Put a comma between Counting Crows and Prince. It bothers me. 
1stxer:
I pay as few taxes as possible ... there is a difference between avoiding and evading.
I did have a MySpace once about the time you had your first but after a couple of months I let it go.
I did have a MySpace once about the time you had your first but after a couple of months I let it go.
Thank you Mr_Rick for the funniest comments ever on myspace!
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doozer:
Grose egg water!
Coast to coast must have been entertaining.
Coast to coast must have been entertaining.
1stxer:
I just went to your MySpace for the first time in months 
Your MySpace thing has really changed.
Your MySpace thing has really changed.
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jayenn:
anytime...rant away.
mightytick:
Crazy is more fun anyway!
Today is stupid.
I hate everyone.
(ok, not you)
BUT EVERYONE ELSE!!!
After my shower today I went to turn off the water & it wouldn't shut off. So, like anyone in their right mind would do, I called the landlord.
She flipped out & said her famous line "Well, what are you calling ME FOR!?!!" Ok.
She then yelled at me. Supposedly everything in...
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I hate everyone.
(ok, not you)
BUT EVERYONE ELSE!!!
After my shower today I went to turn off the water & it wouldn't shut off. So, like anyone in their right mind would do, I called the landlord.
She flipped out & said her famous line "Well, what are you calling ME FOR!?!!" Ok.
She then yelled at me. Supposedly everything in...
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cruciatus:
Is your landlord always a fucking itiot?
zoton:
hang in there. You have to be an asshole to be a landlord. It's a prerequisite for enrolling in the landlord training program.
2 summer courses I never regretted taking were basic plumbing and locksmiths. Not only because I've needed them ever since but because you can make money off your landlord with them.
As for the bills and being broke, welcome to the club....
2 summer courses I never regretted taking were basic plumbing and locksmiths. Not only because I've needed them ever since but because you can make money off your landlord with them.
As for the bills and being broke, welcome to the club....
I went to see Roger Clyne & the Peacemakers last night at a little place called Berbatis Pan. If you haven't heard their stuff, check it out on myspace.
Someone named Garrison Starr opened up for them. You need to check her out too. Cute girl & guitar with her jesus drummer. Very much enjoyed her, her sad melancholiness & her cute little face.
By...
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Someone named Garrison Starr opened up for them. You need to check her out too. Cute girl & guitar with her jesus drummer. Very much enjoyed her, her sad melancholiness & her cute little face.
By...
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doozer:
Ha, yeah right! Thanks though, that was sweet. 
click_here:
powells books.....sigh. It has moved up my list a few spots since last I visited PDX
She begins to vocalise strangely until they reach the shore of the lake...
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mightytick:
I wouldn't worry until she starts spewing pea soup on everyone.
ll:
Thanks Kitty! 
I am totally addicted to Phantom of the Opera. Those songs penetrate my soul & cause much emotional stirring. Nice. Ahhh!
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doozer:
I haven't seen the new one. A while back I recorded the 50's or 60's version but still haven't gotten around to watching it. Glad you enjoyed it!
missmyla:
OMG, are you watching the new one? I watched that movie over and over and over for weeks! LOL Singing at the top of my lungs too
I have poison oak on my face. Not too much. Just on one of my cheeks. But the mother fucker itches like fuck. Wakes me up all night with the intensity of the itchiness. It must have been doing all the poison oak laundry. I probably touched my face while doing it. I tried not to.
I saw Saw II & Phantom of the Opera...
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I saw Saw II & Phantom of the Opera...
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aksiokersa:
Sux about the poison oak. I hate that stuff. I hope you are feelin' better. I have thought about you a lot while I was away from SG. I would ask Alpo to tell me what was going on with you. He kept me updated.
My favorite is overcast too. It makes me feel safe. I like when I can wear at least three layers of clothing. Preferrably one of them puffy. It's all sunny and shit here. I mean, if I felt better and if I didn't kind of, in my lesser moments, hate the way my body looks right now, I'd enjoy the sun a little more. But right now it's just kind of reminding me of all the well people out there doing the athletic stuff I used to do and not ever having to worry about their medicine and shit.
Dood. It got pretty bad while I was away from SG. I started having these bad panic attacks and stuff. Had to go to the emergency room and everything. It was bunk.
And the worst part was that because I wasn't "harming" myself, none of the "help" at my HMO could kick in. So finally I cut this tiny little heart into the inside of my wrist and called them back and said "yeah, yeah, I'm bleeding" and then they finally admitted me and gave me some anti-anxiety meds (or some shit..who knows anymore).
The meds really helped me though. I'm pretty damn good right now - keeping up with my classes and going days without nightmares. The good thing about all of it is that it spurred me to start talking more in therapy and my therapist did the coolest thing! She was like "you know, aks, you've really had some very traumatic experiences in your life. Your life has been a pretty tough one. Why don't you do some EMDR?" (EMDR is a desensitizing treatment that they use to help combat vets get over their PTSD).
It was the best thing ever. I mean, somebody finally validated my experiences in life, you know? Somebody finally said it might make sense for me to feel the way I do.
I think just having that one exchange with her is going to make things a lot easier in the future.
Be dilligent about the calamine lotion!
My favorite is overcast too. It makes me feel safe. I like when I can wear at least three layers of clothing. Preferrably one of them puffy. It's all sunny and shit here. I mean, if I felt better and if I didn't kind of, in my lesser moments, hate the way my body looks right now, I'd enjoy the sun a little more. But right now it's just kind of reminding me of all the well people out there doing the athletic stuff I used to do and not ever having to worry about their medicine and shit.
Dood. It got pretty bad while I was away from SG. I started having these bad panic attacks and stuff. Had to go to the emergency room and everything. It was bunk.
And the worst part was that because I wasn't "harming" myself, none of the "help" at my HMO could kick in. So finally I cut this tiny little heart into the inside of my wrist and called them back and said "yeah, yeah, I'm bleeding" and then they finally admitted me and gave me some anti-anxiety meds (or some shit..who knows anymore).
The meds really helped me though. I'm pretty damn good right now - keeping up with my classes and going days without nightmares. The good thing about all of it is that it spurred me to start talking more in therapy and my therapist did the coolest thing! She was like "you know, aks, you've really had some very traumatic experiences in your life. Your life has been a pretty tough one. Why don't you do some EMDR?" (EMDR is a desensitizing treatment that they use to help combat vets get over their PTSD).
It was the best thing ever. I mean, somebody finally validated my experiences in life, you know? Somebody finally said it might make sense for me to feel the way I do.
I think just having that one exchange with her is going to make things a lot easier in the future.
Be dilligent about the calamine lotion!
If you want many more friends on your friend's list, just write about burning yourself with a hot pan.
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phlebostomy:
No. Overthinking sucks for me BIG TIME!! But inspirational words nontheless......
dkl:
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
I accidently burned my arm on a hot pan. It left my arm red & sore. It is the little things that make me so very happy.
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solomantra:
Ouch...well, sarcasm is always a little comforting, at least...
doozer:
I don't buy many cd's any more either. Burn, Burn, Burn.
Made a ringtone!? How industrious! IF I had a cell phone I'd go with a regular ring tone. I always smile when out of nowhere I hear a song go off in someones pocket. It's funny to me.
Speaking of ringtones, I heard a while ago that last year it was a 500 million dollar business.
Made a ringtone!? How industrious! IF I had a cell phone I'd go with a regular ring tone. I always smile when out of nowhere I hear a song go off in someones pocket. It's funny to me.
Speaking of ringtones, I heard a while ago that last year it was a 500 million dollar business.
I hate weekends. No one around. Nothing to do. No money to do it. Alone. Sick. Sad. Hollow. That is all. Sunny day. Nothing to do. No money to do it. Calls from their campsite, their club, their fun. Ani & Tori & ruminate about sadness. Weekends represent loneliness. It is me. I haven't wanted to say it out loud.
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jayenn:
I'm sorry you feel crappy. I don't have anything helpful to say because I really like being alone. Tonight I went out with some friends and had a good time but I hardly ever do that. I hope you feel better.
velvetknuckles:
Ya dig Wizards huh? You should see his staff... 