So

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On the 10th of May they are going to scope out my heart. Gonna be like a 4 hour procedure, so I’m told. They are still not sure what is wrong with me, they are going to check for clogged arteries but my blood work has always been pristine. If it’s not an artery issue... looks like i’ll Be getting exams until the figure out...
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coalsomnanna:
Positivity is a good cure all along with a dash of love and music, you got this!
korbendallas:
Thanks good sir. I am definitely keeping my head up.

Back to the doctors

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This whole week I have been sick as fuck. My piece of shit coworker who I hate with every fiber of my soul. Decide it would be a good idea to show up to work sick. And thenpig face got half of the building sick..I truly dislike this lady.

So today I go and get some results back. A little nervous about it. But I...
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Well shit

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Jury duty tomorrow.

Heart exam Wednesday.

And preparing for staff meeting on Friday.

I did meet a girl though. She is....magical. I really don’t know how to be happy so I suspect i’ll Self destruct. She does give me a funny feeling in my stomach though. It’s nice to feel that again.

How are you lovely people?

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gadget:
@korbendallas That's the part that scares me the most. "The never the same" part. I just want ME back. God damn it.
korbendallas:
@gadget stay strong homie. The never the same is not as grim as it sounds. My father has functioned and worked for years dealing with everything that is wrong with him. You know you better than anyone, now you have to figure yourself out a little more. You will, you will always be though.

So

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The coworker I can’t stand for some odd reason has started to sing all the time now. It sounds like a soft mumbling......and it has a nails to a chalkboard affect on me. I feel just like JD in this scrubs scene.

Also, i’m always wearing headphones but I tell everyone that I can hear just fine if they call my name. Every time she...
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Monday

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I go in for my heart exam. Stress level 100%

😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐

Today marks 30 days that i have been meat (some fish) and sugar free. It’s been brutal hahaha. But, I did it. If all goes well with my heart exam I get to move into stage 2. Fingers crossed.

Hope you all are doing well. ❤️❤️❤️

Guh?

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Daylight savings...why?

I am pretty nervous about this next check up. It’s on Monday and should give us a better clue as to what is happening. Fingers crossed for nothing or nothing that bad. It’s pretty rough not being able to talk to anyone about. But I know for a fact my family knowing would only make things worse and my mother would be in
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My brain

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Seems to be hard wired to fight any instinct or desire to change. It’s like a dragon protecting it’s riches except it only really keeps me from moving on. I can see it. I can admit it, yet I feel powerless to change it. Demons. They make me always want to be the victim. I’m really just a victim of my own brain. How are...
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birdi:
Beautiful pictures
korbendallas:
@catgrey Thanks (:

How I relax and find peace

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I take pictures of the sky

I am obsessed with clouds, sun, and lightning. Though I don’t have many lightning shots. I could honestly spend the rest of my life taking pictures of the sky. How do you all relax?


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carrot_topp:
Lovely. I love living in the country because i can lay and watch the stars at night.
korbendallas:
@carrot_topp there is so much light pollution where I am at. I have to drive out to the beach to the furthest access point to get to look at the stars. Sadly I don’t have a good camera to get shots of the night sky. I used my iPhone to get all these pictures.
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