sheesh. i havent been on the internet in like a week. i dontk now whats wrong with me.

well an update on me: life has been sucking lately. really confusing. the new "guy"....yea idk. sooo soo very complicated. i fall for people too fast. i knew it was too good to be true. ugh.

so heres the sitch. hes 27. i think if he were younger it might be better. anyways, hes just out of a 4 year relationship. i knew that going into this. but i still, i cant help my feelings. he just made me feel happy. and not to mention uber foxy. not to mention i just got my period so the last two days have consisted on me crying my eyes shut. i went to his apartment to talk about things. i felt bad cuz i was crying and i made him feel bad. im like its cuz im on the rag! lol. i jsut dont really know anymore. i like him a lot, but hes not all here. he wants to take things day by day. which is fine, but i dont know if i want to wait for nothing. ya know? i wish i would have met him like 3months from now. so he can be over his ex. it sucks. ive cried over this man already. wahts wrong with me? fuck. fuckk