jovana

your previous entry was great...

I think you should have left the last post up longer. It was actually worth commenting on. The only response this deserves is- Ask me if I care?

Back to the last post...
I should have hung out more with you and Kim when I could have. You both pull the same amazing "I am the best girlfriend ever" routine, and you both seem very deserving of the title. Of course when I am amorously fixated I am deserving of the male title. Liz used to joke during our breakup- how am I ever going to find another boy who wakes me up with oral sex and breakfast in bed?

There is something truly wonderful to it though. So much personal happiness can be experienced through the happiness of another you love.

I personally never worry too much when it starts to fade though cause I know it will come back- its part of my personal vicous cycle. Eventually, it becomes too hard to maintain and kindnesses unreturned turn to feelings of being taken for granted. (Do something once and you get appreciation. Do something often and you get expectation.) So I withdraw for a bit- but never for too long, since the instinct in me to give is too strong. I want too much to return to that happiness I know I can experience.