johnnymatic

During my whole life one thing has held me back from being happy. The thing is I have never fought hard enough for anything in my life. I have always been a quitter and rarely finish what I start. And even when I do finish something I have never been happy enough with it to show anyone else. I have destroyed more of my work...
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"Cactus"

Sitting here wishing on a cement floor
Just wishing that I had just something you wore

I put it on when I go lonely
Will you take off your dress and send it to me?

I miss your kissin' and I miss your head
And a letter in your writing doesn't mean you're not dead
Run outside in the desert heat
Make your dress...
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I am really just breaking down now. Like and old machine or an obsolete computer I can no longer function at the level I am thought to. I have been running at maximum power, keeping maximum pace for so long. I feel I feel just like breaking down. Its kind of like Im giving up. I dont feel wanted. I dont feel loved. I feel...
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So I went to the club Friday and Saturday and Brandi was there both nights. She danced a lot on Friday but Saturday she looked tired, she just sat most of the time. Anyways, I was not able to muster up the courage to say anything, even if I could think of anything to say.

I looked over at where she was at a few...
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I am not looking forward to work today. It's going to be a long shift, it's a full week of specials and that pretentious manager is closing tonight.

Last night... and Friday night are prime examples that any girl I am attracted to becomes my kryptonite.

So Brandi is back at the club. Brandi is a really cute, tiny, kick-ass girl at the club that...
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I went to City Friday. Had fun. Had a really tall blond guy watch me dance. I watched the really pretty girl that wares the white tops as she danced like 5 ft from me and I still couldn't say anything to her.


As for work... I hate this job more and more each day. I really should look for something new. Two years at...
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So I am a pretty big Star Wars nerd and I started to play the new MMORPG by Sony called Star Wars Galixies in my off time. I am playing a Zabrak dancer and musician. For those of you that arent sure what a Zabrak looks like, it is the species Darth Maul was in Episode 1. However, I look different. Instead of the Darth...
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Hello first Journal entry!

Now this is like a first impression and stuff. So I have to make it good. I can't just ramble on about stupid things like that time at work when this guy asked me "Where do you keep your caulk at?" and I couldn't stop laughing. No, we have to stay cool. Come on Johnny, maintain.

Let's just start over here....
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