Heh... This is gonna be interesting... Oh Well... Here it goes. I'm Living in Yokosuka, Japan right now (What a fuckin' trip). Anyway, I use to think I was one of those guys that is trying to find my individuality through the idea of dressing the way I want, Listening to my own preferred style of music, Tattooing and piercing the "private" areas of women(No, I'm not a pervert! I can be though)... Writing songs as a trying musician, as well as orchestrating an array of poetry and a huge-ass portfolio of drawings and sketches... Well... I thought wrong. Turns out I was wrong. I walked into an internet cafe one evening and put on my headphones (listening to Killswitch Engage - The Arms Of Sorrow) and I happen to notice, which is what I do, I'm a natural observer... That there is a girl sitting in the corner and she is being asked repeatedly by some random ass-hole to turn down her music. I keep watching and another girl walks over to her and moves her hands rapidly at the girl (OH! Sign Language!), she can't hear. Well, I got to thinking later how horrible it must be to be this girl... She can't hear a damn thing... Not a bird in the distance, the rain falling on a rooftop during an evening shower, she'll never hear music (DAMNIT!), and last but never least, this girl will never hear anyone say the words "I Love You..." (How horrible) This must be to her that she is completely alone in the universe and there isn't anyone who can help her. Later on, afterwards, it just hits me (She's blessed In Every Way Possible). It was like a new outlook on life. She will never hear a cray of pain, fear, or anger. She'll never hear that ever so often gunshot in the distance from a crime forever unsolved... She'll never hear anyone call her a bad name, or yell at her, or tell her she's worthless... She is so... so lucky in so many ways, but yet again, cursed... That is my soul revivor... It reminds me to enjoy life to the fullest and even If I do something I should regret to never look back, becuase why look back when I can't change anything... And Last but not least, don't take anything for granted and live life how I want to becuase no one is gonna make my choices for me or make an assumption about how I define myself. therefore, I am a Lover/ "Old Fashioned Romantic", an artist, a poet. song-writer, an Intellectualist, Exhabitionist, Idealist, Individualist. A metal head, raver, rock-star wanna-be and I'm comfortable with that...
