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Tuesday May 29, 2012

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yesterday morning:

I've just had a full blown panic attack for about 9 hours. Actually I'm still pretty much having it mixed with no sleep. Those who know me know what these are like. I'm hurtin. Sam U El was there the whole time helping me through it. For people with disorders like mine this is what makes life hard and painful.


today:

Another sleepless night. Laid in bed all night with my eyes closed and it seemed that just when I might be drifting off an explosion of sparks would go off in my chest. It would feel like 30 minutes went by and it was only 2 minutes. Took half a xanax in the middle of the night that didn't help at all. I'm not sure what to do. My nerves are going haywire. Sam is keeping me grounded but I just want this to stop. I haven't had this much continuous anxiety maybe ever except when I felt like my life flipped up side down and that's not happening right now. Suggestions? I really feel like I need some help.
And my skin always feels like it's burning and I can't seem to eat anything because my stomach is one giant knot

please please please god help me to overcome whats happening inside my body.
I'm so fucking scared. please please please.
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ginicolorful:
i dont have anxiety attacks.. my thing is explote with anyone if im angry!

Maybe you can do things that relaxes you.
May 29, 2012
baudot:
My panic attacks have become MUCH less frequent and MUCH milder since I started working out and put on a bit of muscle weight. Now that I'm not super-skinny but more or less fit, they've almost gone away entirely. Which is not to say that I don't still have stress, but it's not the full-blown panic attacks I used to experience.

For stress, the big thing that seems to cut the edge is eating, especially medium-slow burning carbs. Starches like potatoes, whole wheat bread, whatever. I know you've said your stomach is in knots, but in my experience, I just have to force through that and then everything gets better half an hour to an hour later. If it's really difficult, something sugary can give me a moment of calm to un-knot the stomach while being easier to get down. (i.e. sip a soda) But that needs to be followed with some real slow-burning calories after to make it stick, because sugar calories burn off too fast, especially when you're freaking out.

My theory is that many of my panic attacks were triggered by adrenaline release from hunger. This is natural: When you get hungry, your body wants you amped up to find food. Also, adrenaline mediates the body's self-digestion when there's not enough food to supply the energy you need to keep going. So for a couple reasons, hunger triggers adrenaline.

In the long term for preventing panic attacks, weight lifting has been great for me. Having a bit of muscle has done wonders for stabilizing my body chemistry and I can't recommend it highly enough.
May 29, 2012

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