jesselyn

In 11 days I will be a married woman! How crazy is that? So if any of you wanted to have wild and kinky sex with me, you'd better get to it!

I'm so fuckin pumped! We have gotten so much shit done in the last few days. I'm so proud of us. We have really come together to get stuff accomplished. And it's almost...
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We had our co-ed wedding shower Saturday. Not exactly how we imagined but we had so much fun. And we got a lot of stuff! Beautiful lamp set, lots of kitchen stuff, and a shitload of towels.

Now we can relax until July 12. Then is my last shower and our combined bachelor/bachelorette party. I can't wait. I'm so ready for all of this to...
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i just want to lay there
motionless
emotionless

not possible
movement
or feeling
one is ineveitable

i'm going to quit
my ears are burning
i feel the moisture run down my cheeks

pull the blanket over my head
my hot breath fills the confines
i think i wouldn't mind dying
suffocating

i breath fresh air
you came in the room
i hate you
i want...
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I had a big week.

Wednesday night was the Sevendust concert. Fucking awesome! Loved it!

Last night was my best friend's birthday. I got a tad inebriated. We went to Stella Blues for dinner. Awesome. Their dirty rice is phenomonal. Then to TGI Friday's for a beer with friends. Next to Chester's for a few drinks and darts. It was so much fun. Then to...
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squareroot:

Nice... good times....

May 11, 2008

squareroot:

Thank you... glad you like my stories.

May 18, 2008

I'm getting married in less than 3 months. And I'm confused about what that means for us.

Ray and I have always said that we would love to experiment with a 3some. I've done it before but not with him. And I also keep finding myself so turned on by the thought of being with women again.

Even though I'm very open-minded about some things...
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squareroot:

I guess my thought is that you two should define for yourselves what it means to be committed. Personally, I don't think that if two people choose to bring a third along for a night or two of fun, it makes them any less committed to their relationship and/or marriage. You love each other and are committed to each other now, what is different after the vows? It is something totally different from cheating, or even an open marriage; whatever goes on would be by mutual consensus.

In any case, I think its something that you and your guy should talk and talk honestly about. It would be really bad to suffocate your sex life together in the name of fidelity. On the other hand, you should both be truly comfortable with whatever way you choose to approach it. It is a long and interesting journey.

May 6, 2008

I've come to the realization, that I may be entirely too open.

I will answer any question and not be embarassed. I will talk about anything. And it's getting me in trouble. This kid at work was talking about his sex life and asked me some questions. I had to refuse to answer some; not because I felt they were none of his business, but...
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squareroot:

The good thing about being too open is that you don't really have any embarrassing secrets.

Apr 24, 2008

I am ashamed!

I have always taken pride in how close I am to my family. I never knew that that pride would be the cause of my worst pain. I am ashamed to say that my family relationships have suffered severely now that I'm getting married. I used to consider my mother my best friend. Once I moved in with Ray, my family stopped...
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Attachments

I don't understand the way things work? Why do so many difficult things happen to good people? My baby sister is stuck in the hospital because of a stupid boy and there's nothing I can do about it. I don't even know anything more than his first name. And I will murder him if I ever see him. Be warned you little prick. You fucked...
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reginmund:

Wow...don't hold back. Tell us how you really feel...

Dec 11, 2007

I had the opportunity to see the SG show in MInneapolis recently! It was AMAZING!!!! Reagan and Nixon (my favorites) were both there and I was in the second row!!!! It was the best night of my life! All of the girls there were so awesome. I had lots of fun and even developed some new favorites! If anyone else has the chance to see...
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I just got home from getting a new cell phone. Mine crapped out on me. Then I picked up all my pictures! I posted a few of them in a new album. I'm gonna go to work soon (that sucks) but after that, my fun weekend begins!!!! Yay! I'm going over to some friends' house for fajitas tonight! Then early in the morning we're leavign...
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