jess_a_boo

I'm really happy with my life right now. 3 months ago it would be hard to believe i'm saying this for obvious reasons, and i'm sad she isn't here to share it with me. But, finally i can see my future. I have a full time job, to save up to get my personal trainer certification NPTI in the fall, and they will place me afterwards. I hope to keep up working at the keswick too because i really liked my boss and my friend jenn that works there too. I'm so excited to go to school, i finally know what i want, and i'm glad i never went to rhode island and i'm happy that i hated montco, it just never felt right. I went cause it seemed like it was the thing to do and i was miserable. What would i have done with a liberal arts degree? I'm also happy cause i've thought past this certification too. I would like once placed, and saved up some money, to have been moved out of my house by then and possibly married and then go back to school and get a bachelors in business, and open my own place. It would be so awesome. Not to mention if my friend rob went through with his wanting a certification in my massage therapy. It would so much fun and i would be happy forever. And i would have my g-mom over me protecting me forever. I'm a little dissapointed that it took her death to get my act in order. But maybe something good came out of it? I'm finally on my feet again after 8-9 months of depression and hating myself and blah blah blah. I hope i didn't jinx myself by writing this. Anyway i cant wait to friday, i'm visiting a plastic surgeon, and seeing about getting my ears closed (amoung other things), because i feel it takes away from me professionally during an interview. And i'm sure some of you know what i'm talking about. I may be more then quallified for a job but the manager wont care. Well go me! I'll keep ya'll posted. I cant wait for this awesome party saturday! If you haven't heard about it, go to Gadget's journal.

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