My brain hurts a bit but I miss writing. I have my green tea on my desk and everyday I notice a black spot die on my computer screen. I guess it is time to get a new computer again. I hate how much everything cost. It keeps you broke. I just want to make art and sell art to buy more things to make art with and sadly one of those things is a computer now. Lame.
On less bummer news.....life goes on.
I'm as always making more art. It is beautiful and existing in my "multi-brain." So many ideas clawing out I can't really take time off anymore. I need to make so much more. The itch has to be scratched. I've been drawing little tattoos the last week. I had that bad cold and so I couldn't sit up at my desk; so in bed I just sketched with a pen, naturally.
When I was a kid I loved Peppermint tea. I drank it almost everyday meal. I figured out one day I could put it in a pitcher and brew it cold. I felt like a genus. I told everyone I knew and they made the face you are most likely making right now. I was a funny kid.
I have also having these wild dreams again about now Alec and I having a kid on a hippy commune. Everyone used the same giant backyard for community events nightly. It seemed nice. I had our kid on one of those front backpacks. I must be healing because I felt really good when I woke up. I see kids all the time now and laugh and smile and the day goes on. I don't feel guilty for being happy anymore. ...for right now at least and my dad is playing his vanishing act again...so nothing new there.
I think I'm just growing inside, maybe.
it's time to strive.