jamale7777

May you rest in peace buddy. I could have possibly extended your life. I should have taken you to the hospital yesterday instead of today. Right now (3:50am is the time I said I would be at your door), I would have been on my way downstairs to come and help you get into my car and take you to the hospital. I should have called you an ambulance last night when I hear our other neighbor talking to you. I should have insisted on taking you to the hospital since you don't want to go in an ambulance. This time, I blame myself. Last time I didn't. Last time I said it wasn't my fault. I still think that. But I should have done something. I could possibly have prevented from the other life from being taken. This time however, I should have left work to come and get you. Even though you asked me to do it the next day, I was just too busy to think. Let alone think about saving a life. If the thought had entered my mind, I would have told work I had an emergency and left. My work doesn't give me time to think. My I have to pay attention 100% of the time. There's no room for error. If I even look away from my job I would put about 10 people out of work. Not to mention the cost in the products. But if I thought about your life, I would have stopped and dropped what I was doing to come and get you. If it were possible to extend your life for a single second (it's not yet known if I could have or not), I would. This time, I am very truly sorry buddy. I wish I had done more. I'm fighting myself and thinking of my life and those I've pushed away. You forced me to focus on my outlook on life man. For that, I thank you. It's just sad your life had to end for me to do this. I love you man. Please rest in peace.