I'm leaving in less then an hour unless I find my next muse or it finds me. Is this my final goodbye? This is the last social media site where I'm active. I deleted one when I came back to this site. I'll still have Facebook but I quit posting there months ago. I still pop in daily to FB though. I don't wanna leave...
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''Without change, there cannot be success.'' -Probably Someone Famous

That's why I am constantly and continuously changing. There was a time when I did the same old routine day after day and I was used to it. I also wasn't happy. I was doing it for years. I wasn't happy for years. Then I made one change and another and another pretty soon I was...
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The saying, ''Money doesn't grow on trees.'' is false. Well, in the USA, that is false. US money is cotton. Where does cotton come from?

Here, I'll just show you where is comes from:

Here's the money tree. Pick freely!

It's been real. My subscription is up in February but I do believe it's time to go now. The only reason I came back was because I noticed SG took money from my account. This time I made sure it's not going to be renewed.

I was planning on staying but the person that made me stay is now the person who is making me...
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babal:
😟
bookcouple:
I’m sorry to hear this and hope you decide to stay

The other day I took pictures of some of my scars from my childhood. I have more scars then most people have of tattoos. Someone once said to me, ''Your scars are your tattoos. Each one tells a little story even if it's a scary story.''

I still want tattoos though. Tattoos are much better stories to tell. Also there's literally a website dedicated to...
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jimmieknuckles:
once i had a young lady tell me that scars build character. another young lady quickly agreed , and said of me "yeah he has so much character its coming out his ass."

Well I wrote in part 5 the worst of the worst. During this time I doubt/challenged God as I laid naked stomach down on the ice. Then came the plan.

AGES 15-17:

I knew I needed to escape but I didn't know how yet so I made a plan.

At this time whenever I was locked into the basement with the dogs I was taking...
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Well, it's not my birthday just yet. Still have 31 minutes. Less after I write this blog.

For 24 years there's been only one thing I've wanted for my birthday and Christmas. For 24 years I still haven't gotten what I've wanted.

For the last 10 years there's been a second thing I've wanted for my birthday. I still haven't received this gift.

I have...
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bookcouple:
Happy birthday.... hope this one gets you closer to what you want
jamale7777:
Me too @bookcouple. Me too.

They say it's darkest before dawn. This is also the case for my childhood.

Welcome to Olean NY circa 1999-2002 I remember nothing during the car ride here from Wolcott. In fact I don't even remember anything at all during the ride here.

AGES 13-17:

Shortly (within months) after arriving to Olean, I went to see a mental health doctor to get ''prescribed'' Adderall for...
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bookcouple:
I’m so sorry
jamale7777:
Don't be. I'm not. I was once. I used to think about the things I said before I was adopted.

Everyone is too scared to talk about their faults. Most seem to only focus on their powers. I think it takes a real man to admit his faults.

So here are mine:

1. My inability to lie. This is a strength and a weakness. Sure I can stretch the truth and leave out some things But even when I know I'll get into trouble before...
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nomalez:
@jamale7777 I recognize myself in some of the "faults" that you described in your blog. ^^ The bottom line is that you manage to lead the life you want. ^^

I thought of this when thinking of prime rib.

I cannot drink alcohol and eat in the same sitting. Food just doesn't taste good.

I cannot say cilantro. Nor do I like the taste.

I have well over 100 scars with earliest being age 4 or 5. Biggest 5 scars on my thighs.

I don't eat potatoes cooked any way shape or form.

I've never...
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I came back to SG Land only because I noticed SG stole money out of my bank account even though I thought I canceled my subscription. This time I know I did. I also took a screen shot of it saved it to my computer and sent it to my email and took a picture of it with my phone.

I was looking for a...
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I last left off with me moving to New York State. By now you know you've been warned this is gonna be the graphic part of my story (if you haven't been warned you haven't read parts 1-3 yet). I moved to NYS at age 12, just before winter. We moved to a little town outside of Syracuse called Wolcott.

Welcome to the 5000 square...
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felicity:
I can't imagine how it can be worst.
nomalez:
I will never understand how adult can give this kind of treatment to a child...