idwraith

Wow. So my doctor put me on Remeron to help with the depression I've been experiencing. Therapy has been going well but it seems that my wife's death has pushed my bipolar disorder in a whole new direction. The depression has been more severe than ever before and while I've been showing all the sign of recovering well from the grief I haven't been recovering...
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I'm getting to the point where I want to set fire to my own head just to stop the noise. I have so many conflicting feelings going through my head. I'm so happy that my boys are starting to do better. They're adjusting to the changes and are moving on, but that makes my sad too because I'm afraid of them losing memory of their...
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Well, I'm hanging in there. The boys are starting to adjust and for them things are getting back to normal. For me, everything is gray and dim. I'm doing everything I can to just hang in there. My therapy sessions are going well, I guess. It's all I can do to keep getting up in the morning and if I didn't have the boys to...
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I always thought that being Polyamorous was one of the hardest and easiest things I knew. Easy because love is an infinite force and if you're lucky to find the right mix of people, having more than one loving person supporting and lifting each other is a remarkable way to live. Hard because with being Poly comes facing the choices of talking about it, letting...
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I would like to thank everyone on SG for being so incredibly supportive of me at this time. Things are really rough and there are all sorts of dumb ideas rolling through my head but the fact that I'm not alone means I can resist them. So thank you everyone for showing your support. The memorial service is going to be on her birthday, Saturday....
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My wife passed away last night. I'm so much in shock I'm not sure what else to say.

The wife's reconstructive knee surgery went well. Her ACL was detached so the doctor drilled a tunnel and put two doubled over hamstrings in its place to give her a 4 ligament graft. Once she heals up she'll be able to walk and such without much problem. Unfortunately when she gets older she'll probably need to have a total knee replacement.

She seems to be...
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So things have been a bit harder than we thought they were going to be. Getting any kind of assistance has been difficult and we're running behind on our bills, but I think we can manage that. Of course, by manage I mean rob Peter to pay Paul. I'm going to enroll in classes next semester and hope I can deal with them. I'll use...
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I just quit my job for mental health reasons, now I've been going through my MySpace, Twitter, Facebook and LJ and carving away all the people I only have because I used to know them, getting rid of the folks I never talk too. I've spent too much time being held back by the past. Time to start looking forward, or past time.

Ironically the day after I posted that everything was fine I ended up going into the hospital and spending a 2 and a half day vacation inside the Mental Wing to have my anxiety and other issues seen. Now I've got a bit more of a medical umbrella to take care of my issues.