hemightbegiant

Well, I went to the gym and used my anger to kill my arms and shoulders.

Came home and went to bed...
realized the spot next to me was empty again and cried myself to sleep.
Must've been a site to see...
a 300 lb man curled in a ball sobbing like a little girl.
You can laugh if you want, I don't mind...

I guess I really should have seen this coming. I mean, I knew she loved Mike...
way before she had any feelings for me.
That and it totally fits the pattern of my life.
I was getting comfortable again. Advancing at work, feeling pretty good with my love life...
and them BAM, they hire a new General Manager at work AND I lose my girl...all in the same fucking day.

I can't help but think about that line from Batman Begins...that Bruce Wayne's dad told him...

"Why do we fall Bruce? So we can learn to pick ourselves back up."

If i haven't learned how to do that yet...there is something very wrong with me...

Maybe I am thinking too far into things...
but I still keep thinking about that moth.
I losely follow some old native american ideas that when you are in trouble, nature will help you find answers.
I have been confused lately...
very confused...
and then this moth shows up at work.
It's been there for 4 days.
Now I have seen Lunar Moths before, and it was no big deal.
But this one...
I just can't stop staring at it.
Like it was sent to tell me something.
And the only message I can think of from it is "be ready for a big change."

The moth was right.

-KOS