hellstorm

wow, these journal things are fun!

so the friend of mine that I have interest in, after not talking ot me for a week since returning from a wedding except for when she needed something, told me on Thursday that...

1. she likes me as a friend
2. she needs a break
3. she wants to help but I drag her down

hmmm, what does this mean?

got me thinking, though. and started changing through processes, I hope. seems that there is a lot of negativity out there. then again, when your Mom (and only parent) tells you in High School that "If you only applied yourself a little, you would have straight A's" while taking all accelerated classes, and then college graduation was "You would have graduated in 3 1/2 years if you didn't screw it up", makes you wonder why this happens.

oh well, thank God for a supportive boss and cousin (and his wife). and time to look at all these things I was told, sift through how much is crap, and see if this negative outlook on life can be made positive.

wish me luck on this one!

now, if I could only get a date!

counseling could be fun this Wednesday! wonder what the therapist will thinking hearing this!