what an interesting week. tired as all hell. being called in on Monday to work 5:30 to 11 PM isn't too bad....except when your sick and have to work the next day at 7:30 AM! that f*cking blew! only saving grace was getting $2 an hour extra for the shift. but it still sucked!
then work on Tuesday was insanely busy. nothing to add stress like having three or four calls right after each other. everyone pages maintainence when something is needed. but don't bother listening to pages unless its for them. so I could have a whole bunch of people paging me at once....and expecting immediate responses! bastards!
now, I have to meet with a professor to review my internship plan. got a feeling things will change. confidence has been shot down again. at times, I simply don't believe I have "it" in me to be a good school counselor. everyone else tells me that I can do the job. in fact, they tell me I would be damn good at it. but I don't believe it.
add to that the fact that I might not be able to meet with the counselor this semester. he has one time slot open now (serves me right for waiting this late to meet with him). and I might not be able to meet then. hopefully I can, though!
finally, my mom went to a new doctor today. her blood pressure was all sorts of screwy! and all over the place. so now she's on uber antibiotics and new blood pressure medication. and Monday they start to draw up plans to treat her for Clinical Depression. she tells her friends that her doctor diagnosed her with Clinical Depression....their response "I could have told you that months ago!"
so the joys of my life. I'm getting aggravated by family and everyone around me! I want a break from everything. you know, a nice break-down, where I get a week's vacation in a padded room or something! if I had the money, I would travel somewhere. but I don't.
I'm guessing what I really want is a girlfriend/f*ck buddy or something! well, maybe not a f*ck buddy. more of a cuddle buddy. yes, I'm weird in the fact that I have a big personal space that I'm hostilly protective of, yet I miss human touch at times! and, at times, it gets pretty bad. and hence I have mood crashes. like I'm in right now.
so any cute, single girls in the Rochester area willing to be a cuddle buddy for me?
then work on Tuesday was insanely busy. nothing to add stress like having three or four calls right after each other. everyone pages maintainence when something is needed. but don't bother listening to pages unless its for them. so I could have a whole bunch of people paging me at once....and expecting immediate responses! bastards!
now, I have to meet with a professor to review my internship plan. got a feeling things will change. confidence has been shot down again. at times, I simply don't believe I have "it" in me to be a good school counselor. everyone else tells me that I can do the job. in fact, they tell me I would be damn good at it. but I don't believe it.
add to that the fact that I might not be able to meet with the counselor this semester. he has one time slot open now (serves me right for waiting this late to meet with him). and I might not be able to meet then. hopefully I can, though!
finally, my mom went to a new doctor today. her blood pressure was all sorts of screwy! and all over the place. so now she's on uber antibiotics and new blood pressure medication. and Monday they start to draw up plans to treat her for Clinical Depression. she tells her friends that her doctor diagnosed her with Clinical Depression....their response "I could have told you that months ago!"
so the joys of my life. I'm getting aggravated by family and everyone around me! I want a break from everything. you know, a nice break-down, where I get a week's vacation in a padded room or something! if I had the money, I would travel somewhere. but I don't.
I'm guessing what I really want is a girlfriend/f*ck buddy or something! well, maybe not a f*ck buddy. more of a cuddle buddy. yes, I'm weird in the fact that I have a big personal space that I'm hostilly protective of, yet I miss human touch at times! and, at times, it gets pretty bad. and hence I have mood crashes. like I'm in right now.
so any cute, single girls in the Rochester area willing to be a cuddle buddy for me?
erragal:
Yea every time I talk to my mom is't like going to a medical convention. Also hey it don't matter so much if other people think you can be a good counceler, it matters if you think so. But on the flip side most the time the person that has the worse opionion of someone is themselves.