hmm, hello one and all, thank you all who gave me feedback regarding the camera. I'm looking at a Sony DSC-73 Digital Camera. found a website to buy a new one for $170. sweet deal if you ask me!
as for the SI, kind of weird how the SI for me is totally indepdent of suicidal ideology. did the suicide thing once. long story. rough...
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as for the SI, kind of weird how the SI for me is totally indepdent of suicidal ideology. did the suicide thing once. long story. rough...
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its_weaselle:
upon desperation many years ago, i tattooed myself instead of SI. 
pays to be artistic sometimes. got the pain/relief but with at least something cool to show for it....lol. 
cool thing with findin a camera! yay! i've actually been to quite a few receptions with kids. all went well, although.....i suppose it all depends on the age and temperment of the kids, and behavioral factors too. why cant a babysitter be arranged for when it gets too late for them? actually, i'd be annoyed if the kids were related and not welcome at all. wait, what do you mean by "entire" reception? LOL! oh well, i'm just rambling on now....
pays to be artistic sometimes. got the pain/relief but with at least something cool to show for it....lol. cool thing with findin a camera! yay! i've actually been to quite a few receptions with kids. all went well, although.....i suppose it all depends on the age and temperment of the kids, and behavioral factors too. why cant a babysitter be arranged for when it gets too late for them? actually, i'd be annoyed if the kids were related and not welcome at all. wait, what do you mean by "entire" reception? LOL! oh well, i'm just rambling on now.... I'm starting to learn, this damn addiction I have called Self-Injury sucks at times. I tend to fall into these trends where I start feeling "blah" and start wanting to Self-Injure. however, well, for the job, they'll send students home if they Self-Injure. imagine what they'll do to a staff member who is one of the main crisis responders (Area Coordinators and Security are the...
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its_weaselle:
many years ago i did that(SI) too. dont know why i stopped. maybe i just got busy with an actual suicide attempt. eh, that was a long time ago and sucked. 
not long ago i shopped around for a camera. canons, sonys, and kodak ones are really good. i got a kodak one, i really really like it. paid $300 but it has a million features on it. and i still dont know how to use all of them....hahahaha.
not long ago i shopped around for a camera. canons, sonys, and kodak ones are really good. i got a kodak one, i really really like it.
paid $300 but it has a million features on it. and i still dont know how to use all of them....hahahaha.so this was an interesting weekend, to say the least. and to warn you, this entry will rapidly digress to something that won't make you happy, please be warned.
had a blast on one of the forums with schoolgirl and Mavis_VonMonster, if either of you read this, thank you. honestly (and this is quite scary), that was some of the most fun I've had in...
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had a blast on one of the forums with schoolgirl and Mavis_VonMonster, if either of you read this, thank you. honestly (and this is quite scary), that was some of the most fun I've had in...
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hellstorm:
well, today, I do believe my entire application to Graduate School is complete. I am applying to a Masters in School Counseling program. part of my application is "Please waive the GRE Requirement, since I already have a Masters degree". Alfred University, 2000, only male in my class to recieve a Masters of Science in Education for Counseling. whoo-hoo.....really theoretical program. this one is more practical application based. while I love theory, I also know I need to focus on application.
as for SAVAP, no idea where the name came from. why was I denied three times? the members did not think I would be a good fit. they didn't like me. plain and simple. thought I was odd and talked about myself too much. what is funny is that when I "counsel", I change. I "snap" into "counseling mode". oh well, the program has since gone defunct as well.
I do hope that answers your questions....and I hope I'm interpreting them right!
on a happier note, my supervisor also gave me his Recommendation for me for Grad School. Out of a 5-point scale (five being the highest), he gave me a "3" for leadership, and 4's and 5's for everything else. so that works out nicely!
hmmm, read other journals. might comment. but too shy in many ways as well. the joys of being EXTREMELY introverted as well as sensitive and having a lifetime of rejection and being put down! oh well, such is life, maybe its better that I never have children, so my defects don't get passed on!
as for SAVAP, no idea where the name came from. why was I denied three times? the members did not think I would be a good fit. they didn't like me. plain and simple. thought I was odd and talked about myself too much. what is funny is that when I "counsel", I change. I "snap" into "counseling mode". oh well, the program has since gone defunct as well.
I do hope that answers your questions....and I hope I'm interpreting them right!
on a happier note, my supervisor also gave me his Recommendation for me for Grad School. Out of a 5-point scale (five being the highest), he gave me a "3" for leadership, and 4's and 5's for everything else. so that works out nicely!
hmmm, read other journals. might comment. but too shy in many ways as well. the joys of being EXTREMELY introverted as well as sensitive and having a lifetime of rejection and being put down! oh well, such is life, maybe its better that I never have children, so my defects don't get passed on!
its_weaselle:
hahahahaha! yes you answered them. i think that was kind of rotten of SAVAP.........
so you're gonna be like a counselor in a school? if thats the case........well then maybe you gots some ideas for me.....
but thats a story for another day. i'm too tired right now.
and dont be shy! comment in my journal whenever you feel like it!!!!! got that? i will come yell at you if you dont, too....
take care for now
so you're gonna be like a counselor in a school? if thats the case........well then maybe you gots some ideas for me.....
but thats a story for another day. i'm too tired right now.
and dont be shy! comment in my journal whenever you feel like it!!!!! got that? i will come yell at you if you dont, too....
take care for now
5 weeks left until the buildings close!
still waiting on my graduate school application. one reference got lost somehow, so he's gotta re-do it!
hoping to escape the day-to-day drain of Residence Life FOREVER!
please please please!
although it means moving back with the mom and step-dad, which could suck. but cousin is around. so that's good. I have an escape!
gotta love families sometimes....NOT!
still waiting on my graduate school application. one reference got lost somehow, so he's gotta re-do it!
hoping to escape the day-to-day drain of Residence Life FOREVER!
please please please!
although it means moving back with the mom and step-dad, which could suck. but cousin is around. so that's good. I have an escape!
gotta love families sometimes....NOT!
nice little rant in my Live Journal brought up by a question I saw on this website:
"What is your hang up when it comes to relationships"
you can find the link to my Live Journal as my webpage in my profile.
but, be warned, I write sad since, well, I've learned, no one wants to see me sad. case in point, when I finally...
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"What is your hang up when it comes to relationships"
you can find the link to my Live Journal as my webpage in my profile.
but, be warned, I write sad since, well, I've learned, no one wants to see me sad. case in point, when I finally...
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always brought up to believe that if you're honest, nice, sensitive, and kind, someone out there will l*ve you.
I do believe that to be a lie.
you know, I'm really hating this being single. what makes it worse was someone over the summer telling me things like "I l*ve you" and "I don't want us to ever grow apart" to not even acknowledging that...
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I do believe that to be a lie.
you know, I'm really hating this being single. what makes it worse was someone over the summer telling me things like "I l*ve you" and "I don't want us to ever grow apart" to not even acknowledging that...
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its_weaselle:
i'm sure you're not that funny lookin my dear. sounds like that chick gave you some really mixed messages there. not cool. i always tell myself that sooner or later something has to give.......... in hopes that it will. i'll let ya know if it actually ever works.
i'm sure you're not that funny lookin my dear. sounds like that chick gave you some really mixed messages there. not cool. i always tell myself that sooner or later something has to give.......... in hopes that it will. i'll let ya know if it actually ever works. ever get that feeling that, while everyone tells you that you'll find someone, you won't?
I'm 29. in the last 4 1/2 years, no one has been interested. great to watch some guy who looks like Uncle Fester and has no respect for women (and is a total idiot) find relationships. and me being single.
for life.
fun times, huh?
I'm 29. in the last 4 1/2 years, no one has been interested. great to watch some guy who looks like Uncle Fester and has no respect for women (and is a total idiot) find relationships. and me being single.
for life.
fun times, huh?
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its_weaselle:
ohio, huh? lol!!! and that was the only thing? hahahaha, thats really sad and pathetic for ohio........
hellstorm:
let me tell you how bad it is for Ohio. literally, all there seems to be there are inbreds, corn fields, and construction zones, punctuated by sporadic pockets of civilization like Cleveland, Columbus, Dayton, and Cincinnati!
scary!
I much prefer New York State myself!
scary!
I much prefer New York State myself!
bleck, having one of those days and those moods where things just suck. bored out of my mind. want people to talk to. and no one to talk to.
been hating the fact that I'm single for a long time now. unfortunately, I've pretty much given up hope for dating as well. I know people who have said that all I need is some confidence....
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been hating the fact that I'm single for a long time now. unfortunately, I've pretty much given up hope for dating as well. I know people who have said that all I need is some confidence....
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so this weekend was kind of the "birthday weekend" for me.
Friday Spring Break started where I work. got up at 6 AM (UGH!) and watched as the kiddies left. helped clean the office until about 12:30 when the Associate Director sent me home. came back, took a good 2 to 2 1/2 hour nap (did I mention waking up at 6 AM? after falling...
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Friday Spring Break started where I work. got up at 6 AM (UGH!) and watched as the kiddies left. helped clean the office until about 12:30 when the Associate Director sent me home. came back, took a good 2 to 2 1/2 hour nap (did I mention waking up at 6 AM? after falling...
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wow, I actually got birthday wishes! thank you all who wished me a happy birthday!
by my clock, its after midnight, so now its the 12th. but birthday wishes still appreciated!
even got some new people on my friend's list! I will post, if I have anything to say!
thank you one and all!
by my clock, its after midnight, so now its the 12th. but birthday wishes still appreciated!
even got some new people on my friend's list! I will post, if I have anything to say!
thank you one and all!
29 today, oh the joys.
spending it working and with the professional staff.
could be worse, last year was just work!
gotta love my life!
wouldn't be nice for a shout out from one of my fav's? 'specially the ones with black hair?
one could only wish and hope!
spending it working and with the professional staff.
could be worse, last year was just work!
gotta love my life!
wouldn't be nice for a shout out from one of my fav's? 'specially the ones with black hair?
one could only wish and hope!
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its_weaselle:
happy birthday! 
its_weaselle:
welcome to my friend's list! now dont be shy!
so today at work, going through one of my notepads to take notes, and I find a note.
you see, the girl that I kind dated over the summer, the one that kind of screwed me up some (the entire being told "I never did and will never, ever want a relationship with you." kind of hurts when the entire summer she's saying how she...
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you see, the girl that I kind dated over the summer, the one that kind of screwed me up some (the entire being told "I never did and will never, ever want a relationship with you." kind of hurts when the entire summer she's saying how she...
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