heatherisaboynow

Ugliness is true beauty, in fact beauty is redundant. I wanted a mirror that showed me familiar, something I could identify with, but that’s gone. All that’s left is disillusionment.

This used to be a poem but I turned it into a song. Enjoy! Hope your ears don't fall off...

“To think I nearly killed a man. To think I nearly killed a man without the blessing of the state. A soldier is never traumatised by how many lives they’ve taken, you don’t hear stories from war vets who feel guilty about having taken a life equal to their own. They come home and are tormented by how many familiar faces they’ve lost. They don’t...
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‘The Farm’

Day one on the farm

Don’t wanna raise any alarms

Day six in the firm

This boy just won’t learn

Don’t tie yourself to the mast just yet

We could even send him to an early grave

Day seventy on the farm

Mind castrate stay so calm

Day ninety six in the firm

All that’s broken must be infirm

This life I lead...
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Been really down lately not 100% sure why. Lacking motivation, being uncommunicative and withdrawn, bouts of melancholy. The usual stuff times ten.

So I decided to go to the café next door and spent half an hour gazing nonchalantly out of the window with a coffee. I eavesdropped on the elderly couple nearby and it cheered me up a bit. The woman was so doting...
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As I grow older the more I feel left behind, or as though I don’t belong. It never really bothers me aside from a case of mild ontological insecurity (feeling like an outsider, a tourist). I occasionally find myself doing things for the approval of others or thinking if I do a certain thing I’ll win points, it’s never been my way, I’ve always been...
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“I have grown concerned about my pussy cat. He just sits there staring. He is wasting his life. Tell me, is it possible to become anorexic on somebody else’s behalf? I think that cat is very fat and sometimes it makes me vomit.”

“I remember when I’d have a brooding sneeze. I remember trying to coax the sneeze by opening my nostrils and taking shallow breaths through my nose. Usually that’s enough to make me sneeze, though one or two times I found myself waiting longer. How long I waited for a sneeze is relative to my personality. I’m the type who can wait a lifetime for something...
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