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Being vulnerable while everyone else is acting tough is always going to upset a lot of people.

No one grows and learns about themselves in comfort, it’s only when we’re suffering can we do that. Pain transforms.

Scored a golden goal for the troll patrol now I’m on the payroll for my rigmaroles

Not that it matters in the slightest bit but I don’t feel very “handsome”. When I look in the mirror I’m comforted, even soothed, by the familiarity of my face, as I think most probably do (if you got a lot of affection from parents at an early age this tends to happen later in life).

I have gained weight (I was underweight when I...
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‘Hidden In The Sky’

Some half lit reflection broke into my mind
I saw her standing in my mirror
Some caress long faded, hardened heart
Reactions drowned in the river
As a child I wore a crown so thorny
With an innate thirst for glory
Brick by brick I dismantled the church
Page by page I changed the story

Oh, but never mind the tears...
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‘The Monsters Ball’

Got nothing to live for,
Got nothing to die for
I exist for myself
So if you find me happy
You may decide
Someone died on my cross
The ones who didn’t exist
Long enough
May be the ones
Who sleep in my womb tonight
I dragged my weight
Up and down like freight
Only to discover I was strong
But only...
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( b ( r ( a ( c ( k ( e ( t ) c ) e ) p ) t ) i ) o ) n )

There’s a few people I miss a lot and one of them is Maz. We were neighbours for two years. When I moved out she posted the sweetest farewell card which I still have somewhere.

She was in a lot of pain towards the end of her life, but I was so inspired by her because she came from such a tough background and had...
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