hatefulerin

well fuck me gently with a chainsaw.
or not.
i'm doing quite a good job of fucking myself.
this will no doubt end up being my worst quarter in college.
i really blew it this time...

it's good to be back.
newcomputer will take some getting used to, but i think i'm really going to like it.
i'm quite amused by my new answer to "why i did this site".
i'm supposed to write two papers by tomorrow. i wonder if i'll actually get it done... so much to do on newcomputer...

i'm SO glad i don't live here anymore.
small town drama drives me absolutely insane.
at least i get to go back to school tomorrow.
my mom bought me a new computer as an early christmas present. it has SOUND!!! and lots of other neat stuff too, but sound, christ!
talked to someone tonight who i've been meaning to talk to for quite some time...
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i leave soon to go home for thanksgiving break.
i haven't packed yet. i haven't even gotten dressed yet.
this is ridiculous.
i have no idea when my sister is coming to pick me up, because i just said afternoon. i should've specified a time and then expected her about a half hour later.
time to get off my ass and at least get dressed....
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meh.

best. pseudo-weekend. ever.
skipping class on thursday was totally worth it.
had a great time in portland. the girls, spooky and seanbaby are awesome.
i loved meeting a bunch of the girls on wednesday, and seeing a couple who i'd already met. i was so happy that anais was there.
sean and i painted the town red on thursday, and fucked shit up at embers...
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in the morning i leave for portland. yay!!!
now i go to bed.

edit: leaving in like a half hour. i better finish getting ready!

all is well in the world. my michael jackson cds came in the mail today.

is it really insane that the song 'in the closet' (no gay jokes please!!) makes me want to have sex? i'm listening to it on repeat and umm... yeah...

i should update my journal because i don't hate the world anymore.

(my exact words a moment ago. desidia said i should post that).

or at least i don't hate the world at the moment.
need to sleep. 30 hours awake, 5 hours sleep, 3 hours away, need more sleep.
going to portland on wednesday. yay!

sometimes i wish i wasn't so bitter and jaded. today i even feel bitter and jaded towards this site. i'm not sure why. is this another one of my pleas to get someone to cheer me up, or am i just bitching for bitching's sake?
i hate being an attentionwhore. i hate how self-indulgent i feel when i write in this journal, or how self-indulgent...
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i suppose i should update this bitch, though right now/today/whatever might not be best because i'm not in the best mood and i don't think i'm making much sense. i'm feeling sort of...angry today, irritated, without any reason or outlet. maybe i need to go outside and punch some hippies. maybe i need to go back to bed for a few days. maybe it's the...
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brushing your teeth is so much more fun when you have a paddington bear toothbrush.