Friday Oct 12, 2012

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You know, I really am disgusted that someone who Im sure reads this (even though I have said person blocked) is thinking that this portrait that shes painting is going to really show that shes the innocent little victim in everything, but the facts are the facts. You fucked up, you got strung out on heroin, you caused violence, didnt care about anyone but yourself...
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Sunday Oct 07, 2012

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I'm tired, have a headache, and am dreading going to work tomorrow... But all I can think of is the future. I'm so consumed with where I want my life to be for years to come that I can't sleep. And I don't think that's a bad thing. I wish more people would look forward instead of just thinking about...
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rabidbuttons:

giant hugs

Saturday Sep 15, 2012

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It's quite amazing how some people like to paint pictures. It's quite alright to paint pictures, but, of you're going to paint a picture, then you should really paint it with truth instead of build a lie. And really should just stop trying so hard to cause disarray. I never will understand the idea of people who just try to hard and...
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Wednesday May 09, 2012

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I went to the doctor's, and she had no idea why I was sick, but since it's going away, she just gave me an antibiotic. So, we shall see how this goes. I also need to lose weight, which i already knew. and i gotta get my stress level down, but other than that my blood-work says i have not a single problem...
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Thursday May 03, 2012

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rabidbuttons:

biggrin made me smile

Monday Apr 09, 2012

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Wow, it's been a shitty Easter. I'm still getting kicked out of my house, my girlfriend broke up with me this morning, and work is still horrible. I still can't believe she broke up with and tried to turn it into being about how horrible I am. But I do everything for her. I worked hard to get and keep a roof...
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lunar:

Sorry that sounds really bad frown

Friday Apr 06, 2012

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I hope you all missed me, because I certainly missed you. Lots of stuff has happen to me in the last six or so months, but that's for later. I can honestly say that I'm not totally the same person. For better or worse.
eroticgeek:

Glad you are back! biggrin

Monday Oct 17, 2011

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Don't you just hate when you are talking with people, and they just all of a sudden stop talking.... but it's more sinnester than that. What's actually happening........... is they're ignoring you! I HATE THAT!!!! It's just plain rude! And disrepectful.
rabidbuttons:

I have that happen alot..

gundamfury:

I hate how people do that. If you don't want to talk to me, just tell me so I know to move on in my life. Why is that so hard for people to understand? LoL

Sunday Sep 25, 2011

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Sorry that this looks like shit, but I just copied and pasted from an app. Since it from my iPad, editing it is pretty nonexistent.

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Did you ever just want to kill yourself? Like cut your head off? Or maybe jump off a cliff? I feel like that all the time. I always manage to say something wrong to someone, and then I'm left all alone. It really sucks! I hate myself for it, and I guess it happens because I'm tired of being unappreciated, made to believe things are going to happen that aren't, or not being told the entire truth.

Can you possibly imagine what it's like to have the love of your life tell you that she doesn't want to have kids with you? Let alone tell you the reason is "I don't want to kill them or watch them die or have them feel any bit of pain ever, and that's impossible, so no thank you". But then to have her say after that "and I really don't want to trust you with them". How am I supposed to live with that? I've been doing nothing but crying all weekend over this, and other shit just like it. I feel like throwing up just honking about how much I am not truly loved. And it makes me want to just go away and never come back, or just fucking die.

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fire:

awww i hope things get better...smile