gayballs

Shai Hulud was one of my very favorite bands as a teenager.
They were from Miami. I saw them play so many times.
Then the original singer, Chad, left to form A New Found Glory. I hated that so much. But Shai Hulud! FOR A NEW FOUND GLORY!
Whatever. They've released two records without him, and they've been FINE.
Anyway, the new one came out on tuesday. I can't afford it right now, so it'll have to wait. But for now I have their myspace page to listen to.

Anyway, I'm in a cafe, suffering from teh loneliness again. Suffering from teh stir crasiness.
I'm here, and soon I'll be suffering from teh caffienatedness.

Life... is life.
I'm not happy. Work is horrible right now and I'm under threat of being fired.
The worst part is that... I feel kind of defeated. I feel like I can't keep up. I feel like it's not in my hands. I fucking hate that fucking feeling and it's making me fucking crazy.
I work people who .... aren't that smart. But they've acclamated the way that anyone else can. And I should be able to too. WHY THE FUCK HAVEN'T I BEEN ABLE TO?
FUCK.