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I was up at five, dizzy as shit.
I've been eating ice cream and bullshit all morning. I fapped. I lurked SG blogs.
I feel like a goddamn loser.
I've quartered my effexxor pills in hopes of getting out of this shit soon. Halving my halves makes for a dizzy Gabriel.

Today is off to a shitty, depressing, dizzy start. I can't exercise due to the dizziness and I've been eating like shit. I can feel myself getting fatter.

I'm sorry to be a whiner. I just feel so stuck.
On Monday I get my answer. Monday.
I don't feel so confident about it anymore.






update:
So... I can't stop eating. I remember this happened to me when I quit paxil a few years ago. Eat eat eat. eat.
I just had a burger from Wendy's. It was wonderful but I kind of wish I'd picked up two.
Also, even the smallest disappointments are ... BAD.
Like I went to the comic shop and they were missing a couple of the week's books. I was so.... SAD about it. Fuck. This isn't supposed to happen.

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