gayballs

I'm going to a fancy charity dinner tonight. I will blow my nose on cloth napkins and hobnob with Dave Barry and 59 other authors. I might wear a tie.
I will abuse the open bar and try to fuck someone and give them my flu.

I think I was all asshole-y tonight because of sex. Not for any particular reason besides that everything, in my mind, is about sex.

I haven't beaten off in like a week, due to being sick. it's fucking crazy.
A couple of days ago I got my first semi and this morning I got my first full hard-on. So maybe I AM getting better.
I don't know what I should do about this-- I'm someone who beats off compulsively a lot of the time. I feel like I should maybe try to quit for a while longer, but then my woman isn't necessarily... into... sex.
so i don't know.




also new ginary set!


update:
What a great way to start off a saturday morning. I've just finished watching The Bridge, a documentary about the Golden Gate bridge and the people who jump off of it to kill themselves.
It's a sad movie and kind of exploitive in ways that the well-meaning filmmakers didn't mean for it to be, but yeah. It affected me, I guess, which is what I look for in these things.