Annalee is leaving.
She's struggling with being a 'good' person, and that's part of why she's leaving.
I gotta say, I respect it. I want to be a good person, so badly.
I don't know what it'd take, but I want to be that. I know that my doing good deeds (I try try try to do nice things for strangers all of the time) or whatever is a little shallow. I know that if God looked into me he'd say "you're full of shit, that's not going to make up for anything."
At least it makes me feel good, esp. when people are thankful. But yeah, there's always this "oh, if you REALLY KNEW" feeling to so much of what I do.
Bah. I'll be at work in 2.5 hours. Sick. fuck it.
Up again. Just showered. It's time for me to get ready for work. I should just get dressed and leave right now. Stop somewhere, get some more cough drops and a big-ass cup of coffee.
Makes me wish there was a Starbucks near me. I like the gas station stuff fine, but sometimes I just want to pay three times as much for a cup the same size, you know?
I'd like to be stoned.
I don't feel like going into work but I have no more sick days left. A few weeks ago when I got reamed at work one of the reasons they cited was my absenteeism. I hope this illness hasn't cost me my job.
My nose feels like someone mixed in battery acid with my cocaine.
She's struggling with being a 'good' person, and that's part of why she's leaving.
I gotta say, I respect it. I want to be a good person, so badly.
I don't know what it'd take, but I want to be that. I know that my doing good deeds (I try try try to do nice things for strangers all of the time) or whatever is a little shallow. I know that if God looked into me he'd say "you're full of shit, that's not going to make up for anything."
At least it makes me feel good, esp. when people are thankful. But yeah, there's always this "oh, if you REALLY KNEW" feeling to so much of what I do.
Bah. I'll be at work in 2.5 hours. Sick. fuck it.
Up again. Just showered. It's time for me to get ready for work. I should just get dressed and leave right now. Stop somewhere, get some more cough drops and a big-ass cup of coffee.
Makes me wish there was a Starbucks near me. I like the gas station stuff fine, but sometimes I just want to pay three times as much for a cup the same size, you know?
I'd like to be stoned.
I don't feel like going into work but I have no more sick days left. A few weeks ago when I got reamed at work one of the reasons they cited was my absenteeism. I hope this illness hasn't cost me my job.
My nose feels like someone mixed in battery acid with my cocaine.
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lilypurr:
they do indeed, and liquor store, johnny quest... better to be familiar with the classics than 'she's gonna break soon', I can honestly say I hate that song, they are also really good live.
lielock:
isn't it weird to actually say that..and mean it?