gayballs

I'm home.
Today was better.
I haven't really talked about it too much on the site but basically I almost lost my job last week. This is the best job I've ever had where I've made the most money I've ever made and I was nearly (nearly) fired for spending too much time on the internet. And yes, before you ask, SG was one of those sites. And yes, I know it was a stupid thing to do.

I can only liken it to eating an entire pizza or fucking a hooker with a penis-- it feels good when it happens but when you get the shits (pizza) or a rash (hooker) you think "I knew this was gonna happen." And I knew that was going to happen. The sitting in the training room while my stupid redneck boss says "You big city college boys think ya'll kin do whatever you want when ya'll graduate."
That didn't really happen, though. But he did try to cut me down to size, put me in my place.
And it sucks. Because they didn't fire me I have to face them, every day. "You're on thin ice," he said.
embarrassing.

This is one of those things that I do. I throw caution to the wind. I get kicked out of schools. I fucking fuck things up. I quit everything.
But I didn't get fired. I couldn't look my bosses in the eye.

but today was better. fuck it. i feel like saying fuck it a lot. i just had a conversation in which i said fuck it a lot.

the girlfriend should be arriving with one of these:


in about a half an hour. I can't smoke while she drives anymore