it is a truly sickening feeling, in the worst way, when you are truly disturbed, shaken, unsettled, and you know that there's not a single thing that can be done to make it feel better. to feel like you're emotionally clawing to get outside of yourself, crawl outside of your own being.
Just so many things have happened in the last 2 weeks. I just can't even. People (men in particular) are horrible. And I can internalize things like a champ, so I can feel extra shitty about almost anything. So then all these shitty things that happen, I start feeling like I'm not good enough, and that's why shit like this happens, and I just get this really sick feeling down to my bones.
But. That's enough whining. I swear one of these days I'll have a upbeat or fun post, I swear I'm not doom and gloom all the time.
Cheers
