figmentation

It's a new day.

There was a thunderstorm exploding over the house as I woke up... and my guy had put an extra blanket on me because it'd gotten chilly. Sometimes it's the little things that make you smile.

I'm still not happy... it's not even that... I feel blank. as though there's nothing - just emptyness... maybe a void...

It's now when I don't want to interact with people... when the concept of having to put forth the effort to appear as though I actually have character and personality within me today is difficult and draining. And I'm still job hunting.

this makes me want to bash my head into a wall.
atleast then I'll feel something.









Tonite, there's music downtown... and beer. and people. I think I'll make the effort to go.