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I'm sick. Sick like i've never been before. Its just my luck that it happens now.

Past 60 day countdown. 15 months seems like a flash. 5 years seems like a blur. Now all I have to do is fight the urge to Re-up. I have leave planned for Dec, just in time to test my new Parabolic K2's! I've never popped on parabolics so I'm pretty excited to melt the mountain again.

This song "Grim Goodbye" from Red Jumpsuit Apparatus...
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I'm so excited. I recieved my pro bono print from Annalee today. /swoon. Its the second piece of mail I've gotten this year.

I'm almost done with Deadwood season 3. I cant believe they get away with that language in the states. I havent watched TV in about 4 years, but I know infantryman and sailors that are averse to the words coming out of...
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I scored a 44 out of 50 on my PTSD test. Aced that son of a bitch. I'll be rocking when I make it to RL. 9 weeks left baby, YEA!

Dear Diary,

One year down. Three months to go. I wish I could decide to either get out or re-up. If I re-up its off to Japan. If I get out its off to Utah College of Massage Therapy / Park City.

Today we lost a girl to suicide. She drank some Iraqi fertilizer to avoid having to marry a fatass prick that told the...
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I wish I could tell someone half of the cool shit I do everyday. If it werent for the stupid shit and my dream of becoming a professional ski bum, I'd do it forever. Seriously though, life is so much fun when you enjoy your job. It almost makes me want to stay in.

I've been re-reading "The Unbearable Lightness of Being". Its truely one...
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I've been seeing alot of those special emails lately, the ones that are titled, "Carpe Diem" and "Dance like you've never been hurt" or some shit like that. I'm getting pretty sick of hearing about how people in this world need to take charge of their lives. I do more in my day than most people do before they even get outta bed. And somedays...
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DEC 02

I remember sitting in my attic. It was a cold december in Utah. I'd nothing better to do except deal with being alone. My truck was out of gas. I refused to go to my job. I had already flunked out of high school. I was sitting on my thrift store loveseat. I wished I'd have kept him. One could sink DEEP into...
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The woman. The daydream

I'll be 12 months abstinent on August 4th. It was a choice of mine.
Throughout the past year I've had various levels of fantasy ranging
from fantastic and vivid dreams to flighty and simple little desires.
Most recently the fantasies have focused on the senses. Each one
tantrically. I look back incredulously at how I took those for
granted. I long...
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Part of being a good medic is in the hands. It's not the strength or grip had by a mechanic or a plumber. It's not the dexterity or agility of a pianist or violinist. It's the actual sensation of touch. The ability to feel the slightest vibration, texture, or motion. That is essential for diagnosing and treating patients. Not only does it benefit trauma patients...
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Have you ever seen the world through emerald eyes? Not the eyes of jealousy or envy, but through the eyes of a soldier at night. Of course I mean night vision. On this last mission I realized the gravity of my situation. What sane human being says, "Yea I'll wait here with a 240b (a large caliber weapon), at 2 am in the morning, just...
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We had been briefed for one of the largest structure sweeps since the beginning of the war. We were to take this area called the Yusifiyah Thermal Power Plant.
Saddam had originally paid for this place to be built near the Euphrates
river, but he defaulted on the payments. So the Russians left all this
equipment there and pulled out. Its two square clicks (kilometer)...
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