DEC 02
I remember sitting in my attic. It was a cold december in Utah. I'd nothing better to do except deal with being alone. My truck was out of gas. I refused to go to my job. I had already flunked out of high school. I was sitting on my thrift store loveseat. I wished I'd have kept him. One could sink DEEP into it. The best thing about it was the dreams. Heroin dreams. If you've ever taken Quinine, you'll know what I mean. I was convinced that he retained every dream he helped create.
There was an unnatural bluish tint on everything. In my stupor and heartbreak, I put in that bulb that she gave me. I missed the moments in that blue glow. Now, as it was then, I couldnt pin my emotion. Maybe it was the alcohol. There is never enough to hide me. I had quit with the chaser long ago. Justerini & Brooks straight from the half-gallon. All six of them.
Pyramid Song. I cant make sense of the world, so I drown my senses. All of them. Tomorrow, I'll try again.
I remember sitting in my attic. It was a cold december in Utah. I'd nothing better to do except deal with being alone. My truck was out of gas. I refused to go to my job. I had already flunked out of high school. I was sitting on my thrift store loveseat. I wished I'd have kept him. One could sink DEEP into it. The best thing about it was the dreams. Heroin dreams. If you've ever taken Quinine, you'll know what I mean. I was convinced that he retained every dream he helped create.
There was an unnatural bluish tint on everything. In my stupor and heartbreak, I put in that bulb that she gave me. I missed the moments in that blue glow. Now, as it was then, I couldnt pin my emotion. Maybe it was the alcohol. There is never enough to hide me. I had quit with the chaser long ago. Justerini & Brooks straight from the half-gallon. All six of them.
Pyramid Song. I cant make sense of the world, so I drown my senses. All of them. Tomorrow, I'll try again.
wtf:
I can get lost in your world. Back to unpacking. I feel compelled to say take care, as if you might not, eh.