estelladarling

Oh, it has been so long... since I got rid of my account, and my last entry I was studying for my LSAT! And, now I am in law school... in Houston, Texas, by way of New Orleans... I hate Hurricanes. I'll write more later... glad to be back, yall!

oh, i have to pee!!!!!!!!!

i wanna move i wanna move i wanna move... i think i wanna go to unc chapel hill for law school... but, this plan would work so much better if i was from nc... damn!

anyway, i bought the movie "secretary" and i had never seen the end, i saw up to the part where she gets engaged... my god, that is the most romantic...
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well, the real world welcomed me into her bosom today... or rather yesterday. yes, i officially have a real job. and, i am officially bored out of my damn mind. well, no... it might be okay once i know what the hell i am doing.

today was better than yesterday and that is a start. i like walking around the bottom on my lunch break....
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hmmm... i am feeling an overwhelming sense of disappointment in myself. i think because i let myself be optimistic... for once, and be romantic instead of cynical... and, then realism came crashing down and gave me a big ol' spanking! and, not the kind that makes me giggle.

hopefully i will get into a good law school, and i will run far far away from...
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hmm... stupid ex-boys won't leave me alone... arrrrgh. i mean... hmmm... i you called your ex-girlfriend and every thing she said to you was monosybllibic... that
is spelled wrong, but you get what i am saying... you would leave her alone right? not call back within an hour?...

hmmm... but! i am excited because an ex-boyfriend that i am actually friends eith (we only dated...
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so, i finally got my own damn computer running! maybe i won't have to leave the lovely and amazing SG after all... but, my days are numbered and i am just so damn indecisive.

maybe if the videos worked i'd be more apt to stay... oh, well.

say farewell to me, my account will rest in peace as of the 22nd. so sad.



and, to my dad told me he's being forced into early retirement and won't be able to help me with law school. so, i guess i won't be going. i am scared of what i am going to do... as of this april, i am a grown up... this...
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i hate hate HATE my new apartment.

this of course is my own fault. i trusted my roommate to find us a worthwhile place, i was a fool. a fool i tell you! no ac, no internet, no outlets with 3 prongs, and lotsa ants. oh, and the other day she comes to me and says...

"oh, by the way... i don't pay my bills...
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moving is such a bitch... and, why is it i won't have a phone until wednesday? aaaah... i hate it. HATE it.

and, i have no gas, i really hope the gas doesn't run on... i mean hot water is not dependant on gas. i hate this. grrr.

well, well, well... hmm, not so much the raging slut as much as the confused girl that decided for some strange reason to let someone in...

but, i am waiting to fuck it up, i am on my way. he keeps saying i will break his heart... maybe. more than likely... i will break my own. it seems to be my modus operandi. lies lies...
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oh, me... living a lie as always. i should be a damn secret agent, i am too good at this...

but, it is sad and i need to stop. i need to figure out what/who it is i want... go for that, and be happy and content with that... but being a raging slut is so much more entertaining...